Reaching for Heaven

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2009-08-17T23:23:00.002+08:00

YAAYYY it's sem break!! After all the stress from assignments I had, my back started aching (around the shoulder blade). Im so despo for a good massage now. I like WanJing's massge, hers is really good. My bf's massage.. all at wrong spots ;( My massage chair? Works a lil only..

Tmro Im gonna sleepover at Emily's house! =D with some friends along. It's a surprise that she called me up and invited me to her house. It's been 5years that we have not kept in touch in a bit. Might feel awkward and am afraid of the silence thing between all of us to happen. Oh well, let's see how it goes tmro!

For now, Im actually planning what to do during this sem break.. something fun besides MAPLE. I've totally forgotten MAPLE after all this stress and my bf just reminded me yesterday D:<
"So what you gonna do during ur holiday? Maple? I know u will Maple"
Shyt. lol. Anyway, someone has already 'stolen' my 100,000,000++ mesos worth of my items. It can be up to 300M. It is my fault to put my trust on wrong person. Hehee.

:) ..

2008-02-14T00:31:00.002+08:00

Hello.. :D

WC and I are still fine. We get to meet each other frequently already. Why? Because my mum allowed me to meet him already :) .. although I pernah lied to my mum im goin out somewhere else but actually meeting him. Right now, im like meeting him everyday. Since my parents are free, and i asked once only, and they said OKAY, so OKAY lah. haha :DDD Very happy to meet him and hang out with him. hmm but my parents aren't free everyday. so, its still okay. Today's Valentine Day! :D Happy Valentine to all of you! I dont think I can meet him today. He'll be working in Carrefour. How to meet le? My mum will be busy for tonight's prayers. He also cannot take off. Because he already took off on the other day. If cannot meet, nvm lah. As long as he still loves me and I love him will do.

Bout my college and stuffs, I had just passed my undang before CNY. and after CNY, im taking the 6 hours lesson. Then around in April, im going to college! Quite nervous lo.. No friends there. But its okay. :D Then these days, i did nothing much. Before CNY, I maple alot. While now.. I maple a lil. Like 5 to 6 hours a day. Now im dl-ing back o2Jam! I miss O2jam T.T

Well, thats all. Tata and Happy Valentine again! ~:DD

It is Wednesday, 21st Nov 2007!

2007-11-21T20:22:00.000+08:00

Im wondering how many A's I actually can get after all these papers! And my Add Maths? Physics? Zzz. Add Maths, I think it's okay lah but Physics really sucks. I didnt really study Form 5. And dont like the topics -.- Did very badly in this paper. T__T Now hoping to get at least more than grade C for Physics.

Few more papers to go. Moral, Biology, Accounts and Arts. Heheheh >:]

So happy but dunno what to do after SPM. Maple? Sien liao lah. O2Jam? Not bad lah. Movie? Ok gua. Shopping? Very boring -.- What else? Nothing to do except hanging out with friends lo. Oh ya, anybody gonna work in Jusco after SPM? I wanna earn some money:) And I dont want to work alone..

WC and I are still fine. Just missing him lots and cant wait to go out with him! Wahahaha.

Heee.

2007-11-19T11:35:00.000+08:00

Everything's fine. Hehe.

Sakit Hati, Amat.

2007-11-17T12:25:00.000+08:00

Best place to release everything Im thinking now is here.

What to do leh. I cannot concentrate on SPM. Two things why I dont wanna talk to him are cannot concentrate on SPM and CC. The girl.

Although he said he already forgot her, I still hav that feeling he still likes her lah. I dont want him to force himself to love me. I want him to choose his own way and make the right decision with no regrets. I dont want to be with the person who purposely forced himself to love me. Whats the point? I really hate this kind of feeling la. Really cant stand.

I hate myself. I hate to miss him and worry him. Whats the point?!?!!?
Why I miss him like crazy?!?!?! And he's like no miss me geh. I feel so dumb and stupid. Bloody stupid. Why I care bout him. Why not I just find somebody else in college, so I can now only worry bout SPM. What a stupid decision to add him up in MSN. What a stupid decision to talk to him. and now he loves me. and i love him. Each day passes by, my love to him is getting deeper. Let me tell you Woei Cheng, whenever I say 'I LOVE YOU and I MISS YOU' I really do. I feel so bloody stupid now.

Lets try not to talk to each other for 2 days then increase the days, like 2 weeks. I want you to make up ur mind who you really miss and care for. I think thats the best for us. Blaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

I hate the way I feel now. Crying? yeh. The reasons are up there.

Bahh

2007-11-16T18:47:00.000+08:00

Aiyah, so boring. So lazy to study. And dunno what is he doing also. Missing him heh.

Wonder what are my friends doing now also. Must be busy studying. and me slacking. Haih. Cant wait for SPM to over ^___^. hehe

I'm Still So In Love With You.

2007-11-15T16:33:00.000+08:00

Day by day goes on, and I finally found the ONE whom I really love.

I dont know how to express my feeling, and I hope you know how I feel about you. When I said 'I love you', I mean it. :D

Everyday, I can only think is him and bloody SPM. I hope I will not bored him, as you know, Im a very boring person to talk to.

After SPM, I and him gonna hang out together. HEHE. I hope I will not tergagap or paiseh, or whatever lah that it is not supposed to be.

Love you always, Woei Cheng. :D~

A Hi From Him.

2007-11-09T17:36:00.000+08:00

Just a 'Hi' from him will make me happy enough.

And he did. =D

I hope he won't stop.

Hopefully can meet him one day after SPM. HAHAHAHA.

Ouran High School Host Club

2007-10-01T16:54:00.000+08:00

This anime was also as good as Primo Passo. Nono, not good, it is VERY VERY VERY SUPER DUPER GOOD!

But ah. This video has already removed from crunchyroll.com =( Gotta purchase a DVD! Uhmm but you still can watch it from some other websites la. Forgot which one edi.

As I said before, dont just view the pics, watch it! This anime show is more to comedy and some romance too. It is very entertaining! While Primo Passo is more to .. crying. Hahah. Dont know what it called. Paiseh.

Hmmph. So now I have finished this both. Aihh so not fun when it is over.. But you'll have one kind of feeling. Dont know what feeling it is. It is like I have forgotten my life and I went in theirs. How wonderful! lol.

Okay, back to my life. I ruined my arts exam today. Seriously, everything is ruined! So, i was in a very bad mood in school just now. There's nothing inspire me. I just simply did it then. I regretted I chose the 'Ikan raksaksa dengan badannya berduri dan matanya berwarna merah hendak menyerang anda.' I didnt do a great job, instead a veryvery BADBAD job!

It seems nobody choose that topic. Most of them chose the 'Kelihatan nasi lemak yg berbungkus dgn daun pandan dan teko di atas meja.' Easy eh? But I got no idea what to draw besides those. And if I choose that one, it'll be very simple and common :\

Then my mood got better when I hold a colour pencil. As a matter of fact, I prefer colour pencil than water colour. Water colours ruin my artpiece. Colour pencils beautify my artpiece. I used colour pencils to touch up then. And my ikan raksaksa looked so much better than before =D The things only that I cannot touch up were the bloody water, the bloody trees and the bloody human, me. Anyway, Shu Gi cheered me up too. So thanks to the colour pencils and Shu Gi. I think Shu Gi is my colour pencils =D hahah not kidding. She has brighten up my life.

Well, now, Shu Gi got back addicted to Maple game. I used to.. until my id got hacked by some bloody hacker. So I quit the game around in July/August. She asked me to play back today :\ I feel so guilty when she asked me to. because SPM's comin. And if I play back, i'll get addicted to it! Plus, her mum limits her timing on the computer. But me no:\ This means I can play whenever I want to. And it also means I'll play 24/7 -_-

haha. k lah, thats all. Have a nice day my friends! =D

La Corda d'Oro - Primo Passo -

2007-10-01T16:34:00.000+08:00

Beautiful!!
Amazing!!
Magnificient!!
Wonderful!!
etc

I SOso LOVELOVELoveloveLOVE this anime show alot! Its about music and romance. Dont just see the pic, watch it! My tears poured many times. There're many wonderful scenes! Well, I have just finished watching. And I dont want it to be over! The ending part was very good but it didnt announce their results. and it didnt say Hino Kahoko will be with. U see, there're 5 guys are in love with Hino! None of them told Hino! Hmm just watch it! =D You can watch it at crunchyroll.com Better watch it before the person remove the videos! Click 'larger' to view larger. Its free lol. Full screen and higher quality gotta pay for it. Btw, it is Japanese but dont worry, there's english subtitle =D

Sad? Happy? Which one? O_o

2007-09-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

What Im feelin now is empty.

Ahh, dont know lah. I just wanna be happy. Right now, I dont really have much problems to share. The only major problem is SPM's on the way. Minor problems are like I dont have the semangat to draw, feeling empty, dont know what to do, no mood to study, homeworks not done yet etc. So this minor problems aren't blocking my way to happiness right? I should be happy instead of feelin' empty! Whyyyyy?! :(

My friends in school are laughing but I .. Didnt feel anything? I didnt see there's any sense of humour? I think it is not that funny. It is funny but not funny to me. Uhh wtf? Pretending to be happy is not easy to me. You can just see right on my face. Pucat. And fake laughing is lagi hard to me. You can notice it. But I can smile :)

I think thats all lah. Wanna go watch tv edi. Good night!

HELLLOOOOOOOOOOO! IM BACK! =D

2007-09-22T22:58:00.001+08:00

Yeap, PY's back blogging again;) Well, I know not many of you know or maybe none =D I didnt tell anybody except for Joyce and Valerie. =D Actually I start blogging back again because of Jeff's class blog. It makes me feel like wanna blog :D Blame Jeff.

Okayy. Lets begin something. These few weeks Im having my SPM trials. Many tips are getting into my hand. But I have them just before Physics Paper 3.. :( and before that many ppl have the tips and the soalan already except me! nevermind. Anyway, thanks to WaiTeng, ShuGi and Xingern for giving me tips and mostly are accurate;D lol.

About few weeks ago, I just joined Animax-Asia.com Actually I wasnt that interested until my didi showed me some ppl's artworks and they get votings. then the more ppl vote ur artwork, ur fan ranking will get higher and higher. anyway, this website is all about anime and good for anime fans! we actually can meet lotsaa ppl here. I made a few good buddies but they are only like 13-17. and one of my good buddy is around 22. so far i didnt get to meet any interior designers. anyway its ok.

And then .. about friends, Wei Xian/Deric just got his licence to drive. He got it during trials and now he can drive legally:) He'll be meeting me and my old friends after SPM. Ah, already 5 yrs I didnt see him:( not only him, many more.. like Mei Fong, Kavitha, Shaline, Mohanna, Vistchalacy, Tuck Chun, Tuck Cheok, Saiful, Zul, Hami,.. and many more lah. So miss them and i lost their contacts edi. at least i get to meet back some in tuition.

Btw, my tuition classes gonna end already. Very sad;( Cant meet some of my classmates anymore;( some of us, study in the same tuition for years and now we're goona leave D= sad.

Okay lah, thats all. Gd night!

THAT MOVIE I WANT.

2007-05-11T15:19:00.001+08:00

I wanna watch Spiderman 3! Im still waiting for my bro or dad to buy the disc. I wann watchhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Ive been longing to watch this. T_T

Lala~ I also wanna watch other movies. I cant remember the last movie I watched and days I have not watched a movie. Blame the exams ._.

I skipped school today.. Hmm. I wonder how's Shu Gi. She'll scold me? Ignore me? Revenge? ?? Feeling so guilty. Sorry. I woke up late or else I would have gone to school!! I didnt wish for that too. :(
I wanna pass up the tshirt design thingy! Today's the dateline.. and I did the design yesterday. Its so.. mensiasuikan. zZzz.

Two tuitions today. What can I say is bored. Again. -_-

ZzZzzZz

2007-05-06T21:32:00.000+08:00

Exam's on the way. Bored. Stressed. Headache. And right now feel like dying. Many hws and projects to complete just before this stressing exam. Let's commit suicide, so we dont need to think much anymore.

Btw, THANKS TO MY DEAREST FRIENDS! Who had planned a surprise birthday party for me. It was the 1st ever birthday party since 10 years old. And now Im 17! :D

The party was... fun. messy. wet. stinky. caky. creamy. dirty.
I got caked. 1st time -_- I dunno who took a pic of my creamy face. Its disgusting, oily. hardly touched my eyes, nose etc. lala~

Yesterday and today were bored. Real bored. I got no mood to study at all. Im so restless. -_-

Whatever. It has been quite some time I didnt talk to him. Crap, I mean. Well, we talked awhile since I hardly use the pc on weekends. Its fun to crap with him. Almost everynight I stay up late just to crap with him and + my hws. ZzzZZz. He's busy now.. So what can I do? +_-

Grr..

2007-04-28T19:37:00.000+08:00

What toking u la JOyce. I dun like ler. Stop la k. Grr.

Maybe ur husband is.. KENJIIIIIIIIIII!!I!I!I!I!I!I!I wahahaha.

Sure u dont mind one. haha ceh

AHHHHHHHH

2007-03-14T22:39:00.000+08:00

O2Jam recovered! Yay! But sometimes still got error. Whatever lah. Doesnt matter as long as I can play and satisfy. hheee.

I miss that lil girl lah who did not on for 1 or 2 weeks already and summore not gonna on till SPM ends. Cis.. Whay Ying.

Was hyper the day before yesterday. Worse yesterday. And worst today.

Sorry yeh Joyce. I know I spoke to u just now was annoying and rude. hehe.

EHhhhhhhhhmm,,. Did nothing during holidays. All I did was, online, O2jam, sdo, tv, sleep, eat, etc. Real bored. Extremely bored. But declined some friends hanging out to mv, sp etc. Cox dun feel like goin out and rather staying at home. Plus my parents were oversea and came back last night only. My mom is okay. My dad is busy after bac from holidays. Many works to do. I dnt have a chance to talk to him also. And OF COURSE will not ask him to take me out. My elder bro just sold his precious car. I dont know why he sold it exactly but what he told me was he dont want any sporty cars anymore. He wants a simple car like proton cars. Sad yeh. This means I lagi cant go out.

Right now, im addicted to only one song, Keep your hands off my girl - GC.
Yeap! I love this song alot. So yeng ler this song. To me lah. Idk what bout other thinks.

Ehm. What else ah. Im now worrying bout my test results. I dont care i get low marks or whatever but what my parents reaction! Im afraid i'll be grounded for months till SPM over. Thats so horrible T_T And Im also worrying bout my arts and moral. My moral got prob. Missed out one page. And arts, I havent take the test yet. Got other probs also lah. Which definitely I dont wanna share with anybody except Whay.. but she didnt online! T_T sobs.

Erm, thats all so far. ^_^

SATURDAY!

2007-01-28T01:56:00.000+08:00

Uhm. Today cross counrty. Got nth much bout it. 5km cross counrty. I got position 72. Very teruk.. =_= whaever lah.

I cabut sekolah today. With Say Yin and Shiau Ping. It sucks. 1st time in my life. Prefects came out and searched for us. Then we all decided to berpakat. Not to tell Pn. Asia. We hid in a bookshop nearby our school. Damn scary lah that time. Some lebih ppl reported to Pn Asia that some girls cabut keluar. Then Pn Asia mengamuk and asked some prefects to search those who cabut keluar. I got no transport to go home summore. So I tumpang Sy's car lah. I called auntie.. She said she was busy cooking. Okay, so dun hav to fetch me lah. But idk y she so lebih wanna fetch me and shouted at me. No need fetch means no need fetch lo. I got transport to go home dy!! Argh. She pissed me off. Nvm. Forget it. Im sure she went telling everyone who sat her car today about this. So darn lebih. Nvm. Dun care. Non my bussiness.

That time was 12pm. Luckily Sp and Sy's parents came at the same time! So lucky eh. Then we quicky walked out from bookshop and masuked kereta. Keke. That time I feel much lega d~

And then I called Praba, one of the prefect who caught us. She said Pn Asia also let the girls went home early. So CHEH LAH! I thought she mengamuk there. Thats one of a junior prefect said one lah. Ceh.

Anyway, my mood aint good these days. I can be hyper and I can still laugh. But got something lah~ Hopefully its not complicating and goes away! I dont want any probs with ppl. Its not fun ==" Uh. Thats allll~ Nights.

BLUEANGEL.

2007-01-22T22:00:00.000+08:00

What do you think bout this pic? Its an anime pic. But dunno from which anime =="

Anyway, just simply post this out. I LOVE THIS PIC ALOT. Look at the sky, look at the stars, look at the angel's wings! It is sooooooooo beautiful.. I love everything in that pic X)

Swt, thats all :D

LIFE.

2007-01-20T23:44:00.000+08:00

Talking to Whay now. When I talk to her, I like.. can imagine our age when we're 80. Sitting together. And talking our past. Dunno lah. Whenever Im talking to her, I can imagine that. It just suddenly pops up in my mind.

Anyway, Whay's not sure what she wanna be yet. lets say she is this and me an interior designer. I dunno how life goes on being an interior designer in the future. or maybe I will be something else? NOWAY. Im only interested in design so far. If im not taking any design course, I rather die. Design is the only my passion and Whay.. I can see that she's ambitious. Who knows she will be one well known lady in the future? At very young age? Or maybe any one of my friends will be? Idk.

I have never thought of this until my age 17 and realised something after reading Whay's blog. All the while, I always say to myself, I wanna be an interior designer. Thats all. I did not think of how to be an interior designer and the feeling of an interior designer. And now Im thinking.. How much will I earn per month? Will I be at least well-known or something? Idk. Life's unpredictable. But I wish so.

If I wanna earn money, I have to work hard right. And now.. I still havent started studying yet although many times I mentioned START STUDYING NOW! Im lazy and I dont feel like studying. Even homeworks too. Im lazy :

One thing I just cant wait is college life! and move on with my dreams! The another thing which I dont want it to be so soon is SPM. Coz havent touch my books yet ma. Kinda many of my friends started to touch their books already. For example, Shu Gi, Sheih Ren, Chia Yee, Kelly and just anybody lah!

Im tired for no reason.. -___________________-!

POEM.

2007-01-20T17:30:00.000+08:00

I wrote a poem on Thurs night. 18th Jan.07 Erm. Its not good at all. But meaningful to me. :]

Here are the two sentences from the poem..

A red light awakes, the cowards evade.
Twice the inhaler I use, they all give the excuse.

Uhm. Anybody knows the meaning of it? Its kinda obvious. Guess the meaning lah. :D

Yesterday in school, I and Shu Gi ss again. Really lah. Sitting bside her sure SS one. I made a joke which is not funny at all but she laughed at it. Err. Whathe? hahah,.Me myself also laughed at my own joke lah. But the thing is, I have not told Shu Gi what I was thinking yet. And she started to laugh d. O__o? hahahah. Funny person.

P/S: Whay, share with me anything u got there. We're still bestfriends right? :D Release it. :)

BEST FRIENDS FOREVER AND EVER!!

SS.

2007-01-18T21:15:00.000+08:00

Sitting beside Shu Gi in class will SS one. Syok Sendiri. Nth's funny. She did nth. I did nth. We just looked at each other then started to laugh for no reason. == I dunno. Aint funny and I laugh along with her. She got crappy brain. Our relationship is getting much closer than before. THANK GOD! During school holidays, I prayed very hard to get the same class as her since Im form 5. The last year for school. Since f1.. I didnt get to be in the same class as her. Std3 to Std6. Same class. And after 4 years!! We're now sitting right beside each other again. Im really happye. :D

We chatted alot. Much alot than before. We talked mostly bout the future. Sometimes, our future also. But usually.. we talked bout the next coming 100 to 500 years lah. Imagine. Sharing ideas. We shared alot of ideas. Schools. Cities. World. What will happen? Cnt be predicted. But Im sure the next next generation will not be using any books and pens. Probably something canggih. Better than laptop. Light and convinient. Dark buildings. White buildings. The whole world will change ONE DAY. I will be dead by that time. Hopefully my soul get to heaven and be someone to control this world. Uhm. Nono. Not really the WORLD but HUMANS' BEHAVIORS.

Zz whatever. Dont wanna type much about it. U'll get bored.

SPM is coming. I have not started studying. Only a lil. But usually Im busy with school homeworks and tuitions' too. I cant rest! Now Im pretty free. I delayed all my homeworks to this Sat. Zz. Or maybe Fri night. Gaga. I miss my friends. Especially last year.

Uh. Whatever u wanna know HOW I AM NOW. I tell you, Im happy. Im dropping Chemistry which is an extra burden to me. Wasted my time studying it and I dont understand Chemis! If u ask me to look through or anything to do with Chemistry, I can fall asleep. Seriously Idk why I suck at Chemistry like shyt which even makes Chemistry my enemy.

So. Nth much dy. Hopefully more happie days are coming to me and my friends and to anyone I related to! :D

KHAI SYNN DAY.

2007-01-14T10:08:00.000+08:00

1st time met Ksynn in JJ yesterday. Damn. She's so pretty! Especially her smile! She's hilarious, friendly, crazy, hyper, ss etc. We talked alot.

Actually, I dont wanna go to JJ one. My other friends called me go also but I declined. Coz I went to JJ till sien liao. Zz. But since it's Ksynn called. So ma go lo. Joyce fetched me to there and sry for being late. Heheh. I just woke up after having my afternoon nap. ^^

Then we went to cinema. Wanted to watch Kungfu Mahjong3 but the seats weren't nice. 3 rows from the front. Siao meh? Neck also will patah d lah. So we then watched Cavadar. Ksynn and Joyce thought it started at 8pm.. So we went to McD and had our dinner there. We selamba eating there and purposely did so to waste time. Till 8:10pm, we went in since Im afraid of dark. So masuk a lil early lah. Nobody was q-ing up to enter the cinema. We were thinking why the ppl all so punctual one? Besides, the movie is 18 above. I dont really mind lah. Coz biasa watched 18 above movie in cinema d. Only Ksynn and Joyce were a lil afraid. Then Ksynn planned to ask some qs to the person in cinema.

"Is there any toilet in the cinema?" Ksynn asked.
"Ade ade. Situ lo." The person answered.

Joyce walked in to the toilet and then came out within 1 second.
I was blur. Why did Ksynn ask stupid q? and Why Joyce purposely did that?
Lol. I memang sesat lah that time. Rupanye its just because the movie is 18 above.

Dont hafta worry actually. JJ ppl wont check our IC one I think.

Cinema 7. Was searching and sesating there. Where is cinema 7? This one lah. We entered.. Eh? Why Malay show? Wrong cinema? Then we came out again to check. Ksynn asked the person who's working there. And yep. Thats the room lah. Then we were like HUH? So fast start d? How come? We came at 810. Supposingly got advertisement ma. Anyway, just masuk only lah. Ksynn went searching for J row. One idiot person covered up the J with popcorn box. Ksynn was blur already. Then we sat down.. Ksynn asked the person bside her..

"Sudah berapa lama movie in mula a?"
"Agak agak satu jam sudah.."

Ksynn and Joyce started to laugh. Me also laughed lah. But NOT as kao lat as them and long as them. Lol. I dont think its funny also. Just a lil funny got lah. Heh. The movie is Thailand horror movie lah. Ppl were watching movie quietly while Joyce and Ksynn laughing so kao latly. Bisingnyerr. Nvm lah. Annoyed them. We dont care.

8.35pm the movie ends. How long did we watch? About 20 mins only. Plus everything we bising one. Searching for the row. Asking qs. etc. I think.. we watched about 15 mins got lah. So fast the movie ends then both of them started to laugh again. Really SS until crazy lah. I dunno wats so funny about =="

Okay, we then went to Starbucks for .. 1 and a half an hour. We were chatting and crapping and laughing there. Time passes really fast to me. For awhile d, we're goin to mamak. Shin Lai fetched us. Ksynn. Joyce. Eng Sim. Chen Ying. And me. Chen Ying.. What should I say about her? Lol. She's friendly. She's now studying in SIT. Now semester break lah. So work in PDI, JJ lo. With tes and slee. They ajaked her to mamak with us. Nice chatting with her lah. She looks so innocent and cute^^

11:40pm approaching. Shin Lai fetched both us, me and Joyce, home. Before that. Nth much lah. They were only crapping. Nth much. Then tes asked for my ic and Joyce's too. He said wanna take photo. Zz. I think they wanna compare it. Last time and now. I took it out lah. Actually wanna show tes for awhile then quickly take away one. But mane tau plan gagal. Joyce took it and gave it to tes. I was slow~ Tes saw it. Since he saw it already. Okay fine. I look ugly. And big dfrence meh? Lol. Dunno lah.

Then went to Joyce's hse for slpover. Chatted with Shin Lai, Ksing and Jon. Kolian Ksing lah. No one ajak him to mamak. Anyway, its a short mamak. Not long one. Thats why they didnt call u I think ==" The way he talked very cute lah. Was like this .. in msn..

Joyce: Why didnt go mamak?
Ksing: U all got plan meh? Why no one call me one? No one ajak me also.
Joyce: Because we dont have your contact ma.
Ksing: Yes meh.. Dont think so. Not even a call I received also lah. Always plan also no call me one. Nvm. Always last min only tell one.
Joyce: Shin Lai planned de.
Ksing: Ya lah. He's always the planner. and Kwo Lung also.

Hah. Kesian him. Dun care lah. Anyway, we're goin to SP around next weekend. Buy cny clothes^^ wahhahaa.

Thats all. Lazy to type d^^
Have a nice day my friends!

:S

2007-01-08T23:04:00.000+08:00

Dont know what to blog also. Joyce asked me to update. So Im updating it now lah.

Today's school was okay. Nth much except HOMEWORKS. It sucks lah. So many to do. Anyway, I'll be probably doin them at night. Later lo. Most probably after this. Heheh.

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Stupid. My dad just came in and scolded me. Asking me to sleep now. Urgh. Im not feeling sleepy also! Then how am I supposed to do my homeworks? Nvm. Tmro will not be studying because of PMD. Program Maju Diri, if u guys didnt know does it stand for. We'll be doing.. something like testing our personalities. Get to know each other better. Blablabla. Very sien one. Haih.

Then, on Wednesday, we'll be goin to Shah Alam. PTPL. I dunno what it is. Heheh. Whatever lah. We'll be listening to a long speech.. from 730am to 130pm. YEE~ So long lah. Dunno can tahan or not. Heh.

Thats all for tonight lah. Nights.

NO FUN. PIGGIE.

2007-01-06T20:16:00.000+08:00

Went to JJ just now and of course, it was boring. 1st place, POPULAR. Many ppl eh. It's popular ma. ==" I was searching for the books lah but then can only find two books I need. The q was long so I didnt buy them. Went out and walk around with Joyce. Joyce kept asking me to call Piggie. I know Piggie is cute.. and decided to go JJ. But I felt guilty and annoying asking him to JJ. Stupid eh? It is. Uh. Then went to MPH to see some books then POPULAR again. This time, I really gotta buy them because I cant go home with an empty hand.

Then Joyce said she gotta go to church already. Im not allowed to church coz im Buddhist. And I dont wanna be a Christian either. Left me in VINCCI since Shin Lai and Kwo Lung are working there. Hopefully I wasnt disturbing them. I sat there for awhile then.. MPH again. Went to see books.. And study a lil bout designing. I can't find the book I used to read. I think ppl have bought it already :( Nvm.

Piggie called. Asked me to PDI. 1st time I heard his voice. I thought his voice would be childish but its soo.. ironic. He sounds kinda fierce also. O-o Hmph. Go there talked nth much with TES. Really nth much. And that time.. my mood was worse than before coz I cant talk to PIGGIE! Dunno lah. He's not talking also. Jus feelin' weird.

Watched the Seed of Darkness.. Dun reli know the title is. Jus follow Piggie and Siang Lee only. The movie was boring and a lil scary. We watched half way only since it was boring. They walked very fast eh. I gotta catch up. They're tall. Me short. Nvm. Then met Tes, SL, KL, and Ksing at food court. Feeling better after meeting Tes, Sl and Kl. They at least can talk to me and make me smile. :)Then me went home lo.

Joyce, u said I like Piggie right. I dont think so. Lol. I dont know lah. Maybe no, maybe yes, maybe not him. Me really dont know. And IF I like him, he will not like me also. He's not into this kind of relationship one lah. Hah. Dont care this thing lah. Lets study >;]

HELLO! IM HOME!

2007-01-04T14:08:00.004+08:00

Soon, Im gonna get rottan. 3 hours to go~ Hehee. Hopefully not pain lah. I heard there's a girl cried after get canning. Scaryyy le. ): I hope I will not cry. ):

Hmph~ Today is the second day of school. Kinda bored and lottsaa homeworks to finish up. ): Haih. So fast give homeworks lah these teachers. ==" So lebih one.

Since no Val, Sy, Sj.. I paid attention in class today. Not full. Got abit daydreaming. Heh. Very tired le. I forced myself not to take a nap now. Or else, I can't sleep at night. So gotta tahan lah. I slept only 3 hours last night. Better than not sleeping at all right. Luckily can slp last ngiht le ^^

Really miss my friends. I used my last year notebook. Inside all kene conteng by Val and me. Hee. All drawings and cartoons ^^ Miss the time we used to conteng ppl's books also. );

I am ready for rottan later >:]

SCHOOL! NO! X(

2007-01-03T14:23:00.000+08:00

I couldn't sleep! I did not slp for the whole night. I went to bed at 12am. But couldnt sleep. My mind was thinking lotsssaaa stuffs. Rubbish. =(

I get up from bed at 5am since I couldnt sleep. Prepare myself to school. And go to school. The car is full and so sempit. Cuz there're ++ 3 new girls for morning session. 8 ppl in a Kancil. How to sit? Cant masuk also. So gotta make two trips. ;( I WANNA GO HOME EARLY! If Im taking the second trip, I think I would be back only at 2.30pm while school ends at 1pm. See. That means, I gotta rush to the small lil Kancil just right after my class over. So mah fan lah. Haih. For the one wholeeee year. Hafta tahan like this. HAIH.

I get to the second class! 5 Success. %&*(#$@!! WTF?! I DONT WANT TO GET INTO THIS CLASS! WHY?! Argh. I got not many friends there except for one close friend, Shu Gi. And the rest are all nerdies. I dont care the nerdies or whoever, I just wanna be with my friends. All of us are separated. We can only get to meet each other before school, recess and after school. ):

Not same class anymore. Im unable to study, chat, laugh, crap, buat bising, annoy teachers, daydreaming, play with them in class anymore. NOMORE!! Form 5 already kay.

Say Yin : 5K
Su Juan : 5K
Valerie : 5H
Lae Syee : 5K

Most of my close friends stay back in same class, 5K. While only me and Val changed.
Im soo sad. Really, seriously, honestly sad. :( I cried in the class. I hope noone noticed. I wanna change to 5K back, but the penyelaras doesnt allow. :((!! IM SO SAD! :( Haihz. I cant crap, chat, laugh, disturb, annoy, play wth them anymore. NOMOREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! Haih. Im so not in a mood to blog now. Byebye.

JOY's BDAY and NEW YEAR! :D

2007-01-01T21:09:00.000+08:00

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

I had some fun only when reached Shin Lai's hse and in his van. Idk lah. At 1st, we went to Central. Then I booked for 20 ppl. No one's there yet. Luckily I got Eelin, then not long, Khai Wei came. Sry again ya KW. Gotta make u come early.

Then Ak gang came. Hmph~ Then friends came. Joyce reached about 815pm I think. She said she's coming at 7.30 but 45 mins late. Heh. Nvm. Bday girl must be like this. Hahah.

Uhm. The sad thing is.. I wasn't hyper at all. I felt~ lonely. LOL. I didnt mix with them. I got nth much to talk. My brain was like dead. Did not think of anything. Nvm. Later, I was hyper after AK left. We shouted at the singer. Hah. The singer also kembang d gua. Kaka. Then listened to the band till SL called. Kesian SL gotta fetch us. I felt really guilty. Plus messing his place and did not help him to clean. SORRY. B4, we had dinner there and plus a piece of cake to eat. Really full eh. Cnt tahan.

SL was like a taxi driver last night. Fetching one by one home. Waste his energy, time and petrol. Previously, Xmas also like this. Paiseh to go out with them d. :$ Not only that eh. The cake he bought for Joyce's bday was a lil waste also I think >_> Idk how much the cake left after Joyce cut it. They were all caking each other. Heh.

Erm, then reached Joyce's house, slpover there. Was like 1 something. Hmmph. Get clean, then see them playing SDO. Gee. so like o2jam. I MISS O2! :( Btw, I suck at SDO. Cant play well :(
Whay was playing. Atyh and Joyce were watching her playing. And me decided to lay down on the cushion... and fell aslp. ZZzz. Angel woke me up. Hah. Not long also I slept. Few mins only. Then Joyce and I decided to go to bed d since we both cnt tahan liao. But then, we chatted bout the party before slping. After chatting puas puas, she slept. Me.. cant slp. I slept at 6 somthing I think. Whay and Angel slept at 530am. Around there.

Woke up at 12.15. Bathed. Lunch. JJ.

JJ ==" Super bored. Can kacau Kwo Lung and TES there only. Got nth to do one. And I didnt realise Ksing was there also. Btw, I dont really know him. If I know him, definitely Im gonna kacau him since I was bored there ==". TES did not dare to talk to us since he wants to show a good image to his boss. Hahah. KEEP IT UP!

No one's fetching us home. How stupid yeh. Luckily my bro was in Bkt Tinggi and on the way home when I called him. Or else, he wont be fetching me and Joyce. Then went to KEC and slept there for awhile while waiting for bro.

FINALLY REACHED HOME. DINNER. BATH. AND NOW ON9. Stupid Msn. Still can't log in. So boring now~ :(

WHY CNT LOG IN~ T____T

2007-01-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

Dont know how many times I tried to log in msn and I failed. Ugrh. Kinda fed up with it dy lah.

Its something to do with key ports. Idk what it is. ==

And SDO! TES gave me the Cd just now.. I have installed it but the thing is I cnt play. Waited for so long dy. Haih. And now cnt log in to Windows Live and no games to play. So boring ==

My parents are out. And me alone with my maid and dogs now. Sobs*

Anyway, happie new year! :D

LILILALALOLOLULULELE~

2006-12-29T22:45:00.000+08:00

Im insane. Heh. What a day. Went to tuition.. saw 3 ppl. They look young and dont even look like 17. New students? Nahh. Couldnt be. Its 29th Dec. Where got new students come at the end of the month one. I was sooo left out. So I asked a girl but she can't understand English. Whathe. English!! How could she..? Doesnt know even a single word of English meh? Whaever. Then I dont care.. Just blur blur masuk classroom. Till everyone arrived, then only Mr. Azmi told us that today combined class coz Monday Xmas. Lalala~ Many guys coming in. I was like so.. wth. == Why Mr. Azmi's class all guys one? And so few girls? By the way, I was absent last week. That's y I was blur.

Haih. What about January? I dunno is there any girl comin to this class or not. Hopefully there is and a friendly one. And also can laugh and talk lah. Hahah. Some girls are so weird that cant even laugh or smile or talk and always pay attention to teacher. Scary girls.

Anyway, thats all what I wanna blog about lah. Nth much. Just feelin too bored at home ): Nights!

HAPPIE BIRTHDAE JOYCE !!

2006-12-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~

J O Y C E !

HAPPIE SWEET SIXTEEN!

JOYCE 16 liao. Finally~~~~~~ Wakakaka.

MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE and YOUR FUTURE UNDERTAKINGS :D

HAPPIE HAPPIE ALWAYS! SMILE SMILEE ALWAYS! AND ALWAYS! :P

LOVE,
PEI :D

kaka.

LESTER AND ALICE :D

2006-12-29T00:25:00.000+08:00

Keke. That's Lester, my wow wow. Is he cuttttttteeeeeee? No? :( Yes? :D Kakaka.

My baby biting something~ My bro's thing. Weheheh >:]

Jajaja

Nahh. Finally. ==" This is the necklace which Yj gave me in Genting.
Anyway, many of u guys saw it before d. hahah.

PINK! HAHAH. Uhmm, its blurr. Can see the words there? ALICE! :D

WEIRD. SCARY. IDIOT.

2006-12-28T21:05:00.000+08:00

I cant sign in to Windows Live Messenger! Urgh. I think everyone's also the same. Some.

Since Im free now, just blog what I felt yesterday lah.

Yesterday I went to Kp with Whay right. Goin back time, I was alone. Whay went home at 7.50pm. We were waiting for our parents sincce 7.45pm. Not much difference lah. But I went home at 8.20pm. I waited for my parents 30 mins le.

This 30 mins I felt weird, scary and like an idiot after Whay got home. Hah. I was waiting in front of Star Bucks alone. I was wearing all black and a big plastic bag of something :P with me. Idk lah. Many ppl were looking at me. And especially guys. They were looking at me while walking. Very weird meh standing alone waiting for parents? I think yes gua. They were like thinking I was waiting for BF to come or BF tinggalkan me alone. Malu betul. Gee. Nvm. I dont really care. Luckily no leng zai see me like dat can dy. Hahaha.

There were two guys. Malays. Looking at me for so long. Ish. BABI BETUL. They were like waiting an opportunity to rob me. That time, I got only RM10 in my wallet. Habis belanja on my stuffs d. Want to rob what eh? == Haih. One of the two, was standing far on my right. Then, he came nearer and nearer to me. Wtf. I was scared eh. He came till soooo near and I felt so terrible scared that time and finally he went away. ARGH! WTF?! Anyway, GOOD! U dont hafta scared me till like that!

Then another malay guy by the road side was watching me longer than the another one did. This one is scary. He watched then hid. Watched then hid. Stupid. I CAN SEE YOU LAH! Babi. Dont have to do that. This 30 mins were scaryyy~ But as I know, it wont happen because its in public. Many ppl in Star Bucks also. ==

DEAD BRAIN.

2006-12-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

Uhm, just now I blogged one.. click the second pic to view a bigger view. U'll find that picture more scaryyyyy. I freak out also kay.

So,, my brain's not functioning well. Im an idiot. My brain is soooo karatttt already and still I havent put oil. Uhh. Dunno when only Im gonna put. I think Im putting it this Fri lah. Hahah.

Just now, after back from Kp, I was so.. == Tired. My parents were scolding me and I dont even care. I was tired to argue back or whaever. I ignored them and wasnt listening to whaever they were talking in the car. Then, back home, I did not talk to them. I answered my mom only in short like 'mm' 'yes' bla bla blah. My brain~ like doesnt wanna think anything especially school. School's gonna reopen so soon. X( I dont want to go school but just to meet friends only. X( LAlalA~

ONE. TWO PICS :P

2006-12-27T21:40:00.000+08:00

Here are the pictures we took in Star Pisces. 24th Dec '06.

What? Dont know who's idea to do this. Hahah. My cacat looking fingers.
Guess which are mine? :D

Scary eh. Especially me with long hair, my eyes all black and a smile :) Wakaka.

Anyway, from left, Debbie, PY, Eelin. :D

LONELY?

2006-12-25T23:26:00.000+08:00

I wanna share my probs with somebody. Especially u Joyce. I hope u'll read this. Especially this blog. U hav bout the same prob with me. and u'll understand. So thats why I wanna share with u.

Honestly, no one cares me. Who cares me yehhh? My parents? Yeah, I know. Friends? Only Joyce, Whay and Val I think? I dont know. Maybe some. But I didnt realise. Anyway, I think.. really nobody lah. I wan to have a really really good buddy who can spend alot time with me and share probs with me. If not spending time with me, at least tell me what u do everyday? Hahah. Sounds lesbo? Nah. Not only girls. Guys also lah. Male bestfriends got prob? No right. But kinda weird also.

Uhm. Blogging is like online diary right? Haha. Yeahhh. So.. I'll express my feelings here. Anyone who's reading this.. Im sorry? Get what I mean lah k.

Uhmm, didn't force any of u guys to read also. Don't want read is okay. I mean it. I hav diary in my room. But lazy to write dy. So now, lebih canggih abit, I type. Cheh.

Haih. Sighing nowadays is like my habit already. I feel lonely everyday): I want friends. Accompany me. But who can? Nobody except Joyce, Whay and Val. Thats why I always online everyday and on long? Yeah. To find my friends who can't accompany through phone or something. Btw, my phone always no credit one. Especially in Nov and Dec '06. Nov.. Because of Yj lah. Dec.. Friends lorr. Uhm. Am I asking too much? Like,, I need friends? Yes I do. Friends are really important to me.

"Why do all good things come to an end?" Familiar with it? or no? Its a part of the lyric sang by Nelly Furtado, All Good Things Come To An End. I agree her. My memories...~ I'll feel lagi lonely when Im listening to this song ):

I want someone accompany me! Not forcing okay. Natural, if you want, then okay. Im happy enough already. I dont want to spend everyday alone. At least there's Joyce with me almost everyday. And Shu Gi sometimes. She's my best friend since I was 10. ^^ To be honest, I dont know why I'll feel happy when I get to see my friends and especially old pals. :D And I feel like spending the whole day with them. Hmpph. Sometimes,, not. If we really got nothing to chat. Hahah.

Im not crapping by the way :D Nights.

JOYCE~ :D

2006-12-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

Oh ya, I forgot. Just now I blogged right. The title was LUCKY OR NOT. Okay, I forgot to tell u apa kaitan with it. Uhm,, as I mentioned before, I think twice.. or maybe once == I hav bad luck these two weeks? 3? Uh. Memang unlucky lahhh. I dont feel like going out already. Im afraid more unlucky things to happen. ): I dont want. ): Really. Who wants bad luck? Haih.

Im having bad luck everyday. So.. anyone wants to come near me now? Anybodyyyyyyyyy? No one. Duh. Unless some dont know lah. Really sad :( also. Sometimes, Im sad for no reason. Hahah. How stupid yehh. I got sick now. Stupid. I hate it. I cant sleep every night because keeps coughing. Uh == !! Help me! Nobody can): Except myself.

Okay, so Joyce... JOYCE's BIRTHDAY is COMING!!!!!!! Wahahah. Hopefully you'll enjoy, Joyce. And hopefully everyone will enjoy themselves also. Lalala~ Hmph. I dont know the plan much right now lah. As I know, we'll be celebrating Joyce's bday on the 30th dec. Sry le ): and.. where will we be gonna celebrating it? Central? Mamak Eng Ann? Where?! I got no ideas. As I know again, it must be in Klang because some cant go any further than Klang. So.. What about Central? Ah. Duno lah. So blur.

Btw, I miss u lots Joyce.

LUCKY OR NOT?

2006-12-25T21:45:00.000+08:00

Merry Christmas! Heheh. Okay okay, I was actually hyper and excited last night. I get to meet my old pals! YEAHH~ Cant believe Debbie's coming! Hahaha.

I went to Star Pisces last night. About 8.15pm. Chee Kar was already there since 7pm. Hahah. Dont know whats wrong with him. We promised to go there at 8. Heh. Eelin went there at 8pm I guess. Then we crapped and crapped till Debbie came. After Deb's arrival, we decided to play some card games. Uhm. Played alot lah. I cant remember also. We were playing and crapping^^ Hahaha. So funn lahhh~ Then we took pics. Ahem. My pics are ugly okay. So I wont post out them here. Probably one or two only. :P Hahahah.

While we were taking pics, Michael came. At first he said he got family prob right. But finally he said settled d. Heheh. More ppl more fun ^^ Summore Michael is kinda childish. We crapped and laughed alot lah. We took pics with him also.

Then play crap play crap till Shin Lai came with his gang. A big gang yehh~ They're so close to each other and they are like.. having 6 bestfriends? Cool eh. All so rapat rapat. Compared to mine,,, nahh. My bestfriends are like.. dont know each other. -sigh- ): Chee Kar did some stupid stuffs and I dont dare to play his game. Hahah. Only Eelin =O and Shin Lai were dare to play. Siao siao one. Chee Kar shouted LENG ZAI at the singer. Then Idk really know what he did lah. With Eelin and SL. I was not listening to them because I was sick. Tired to listen. Hahah.

Gee. Deb and Eelin gotta go back early. ): So sad le. Both of them were also sad. ): Nvm. NEXT YEAR kay! Plus, itll be just after SPM. Weheheheh >:] Sl suggested to go watch a movie after Star Pisces, so okay, since my parents were not here at that time, I decided to go with my bro's permission. Heh. 1st time le~ Went back home at 2am. The latest one I think. Then I got scolded from my parents this evening. My stupid younger bro lahh~ told them. Urgh.

We watched The Curse of the Golden Flower. Something like that lah. It was superb boring! As I know, SL and Michael fell asleep. Chee Kar? Idk. SL's friends? Idk. Was not paying attention to them. Just watched the screen only. Heheh. And aaa the girls! sat bside me banyak bising. They were talking in mandarin about Jay Chou I think. I heard they mentioned his name. Uh. JC only maa. Who cares. He's yeng lah but still I dont like him. ceh. Whaever~

Joyce's birthdae coming! =O! :D

TWO WEEKS.

2006-12-24T17:49:00.000+08:00

Lalala~ Im so so happy! Yep yep! Im really happy. Im happy having two unlucky weeks. Hmpph~ So cool~.

Finally the xmas gathering has been cancelled because of something. So probably later goin to Star Pieces nia. == Boring..~ Lets see. I invited Joyce, Whay, Val, Sy, Shu Gi, Khai Wei, Chee Kar, Eelin, Michael, Weng Kit, Ryan and Jian Chong.

The ones who cant make it.
Joyce : Singapore. hahah.
Whay : Celebrating with her friends I gues.
Val : Sick.
Sy : Celebrating with family.
Shu Gi : Dont feel like going.
Kw : Parents dont let.
Michael: Family prob.
Wk, Ryan and Jian Chong : Dont know them lah.

Going ones:
Chee Kar and Eelin. Hahah. Thanks for celebrating Xmas with me! I got no one to celebrate with. Bro celebrating with friends. Another bro doesnt care bout Xmas. Parents oversea. Gee. Dont know what kind of friends I have. Those with their own reasons nevermind lah. But some.. ==

Nvm. I dont believe true friends anymore. Always trying to give excuses. Nvm. The only I can trusted are the ppl around me. Whay, Joyce and Val! :D Hahah. Val, hopefully u'll get well soon. Joyce, enjoy in Sg~ Hahah. Miss u alot lah Joyce. Wanna go out kai kai with u pun tak boleh. Haih. Whay, enjoy whatever u're doin now~ Hahaha.

I wanna celebrate with my parents... TT_____________TT

Btw, told ya, Im unlucky for two weeks already TT__TT Go away stupid unlucky!! );

WTF.

2006-12-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

I kept sighing nowadays. Got prob lah which I have not told anyone yet. Nvm. If I tell my friends, I think they'll laugh at it. Tak pasal pasal think bout it one lah.

Went to an Xmas party last night. Hmmpph.. I had some fun there lah. The thing is.. FUNNY. The ppl there are friendly except for some lah. Some .. Jeling at me for no reason. Wtf. I hate those ppl. Nvm. I dont even know them. Then, some are really really friendly ^^ Im happy to meet them.. But no contact with them punye. One thing, I didnt know most of them are from MGS. Have not seen them before maa. I would like to mix with them but.. shy lah. Heh.

Beginning, we intoduced ourselves. Then eat. Then played a game. Not bad lah. Quite funny.

Uh. Then we got chocolates. THANKS! Hahah. Then go home~ Thats all lo.

Today,, did nth much. I think I got fever now:( My forehead is hot. Nvm. Jiorrh. I wanna go out kai kai lah. But where to go le? Cant tahan d. Always stay at home. So sien! No transport to go out also. Gee ): No mood to blog or doin anything lah. I wan my mummy and daddy! ):!!!!!!!!!! MISS THEM ALOT.

CANT GO~

2006-12-21T23:02:00.000+08:00

Sigh. What have I done?!! Yj now goin and I pulak now cant go!!! Before, I can go Yj not confirm going. Aiks. Nvm nvm. Cool down~~ Haih. Stupid mistake. I mean GO TO PROM. Tmro one. Crystal Crown Hotel. Ahh!~

Haih. What an unlucky week! Whatever I do. Surely bad luck one. I didnt go for Addmaths class today. Coz no water. I wont go out without taking bath one. Haih. So I missed two classes of Addmaths today. And then, my parents' room door is locked. No keys to open it. I accidentally left them in the room. I was slpy last night lahh~ And I didnt know the bunch of keys are inside. So I locked it, then right away went to bed. UHhh. My stuffs are all inside! Gee. Babi betul lah. All my fault. My fault! WHY SO UNLUCKLYYYYYYYYYYYY!! Then, my uncle, the tukang kunci, came and tried to open the door, but couldnt. Idk why. He said its weird. WTF?! Nvm, I need that door to be opened by tomorrow. Or else... COMMIT SUICIDE. All my stuffs are inside lah.

Anyway, no worries dy lah. I called my parents. They are in oversea rmb? Okay, they asked me to break down the door then. Hmpphh. Then I called my uncle to break down but he said he's afraid? Coz got money inside the room maa~ Later lost, who's gonna tanggung right. Nvm. I'll be asking my older bro to break down. Then if he cant make it, I'll ask my uncle again.

Im goin to an Xmas party tmro! Yay! Hahah. I was very happie just now. That I got transport to go there! But now.. sigh. Yj asked me to go to that prom. He's confirmed now already. WTF again. So LATE only confirm meh?! TOO LATE d lahh. Cant make it anymore. Uh. Nvm. Next time lah.

NECKLACE FOUND.

2006-12-20T16:57:00.000+08:00

I found it already!! WEEEEEE~ Hahah. It was in my drawer all the while and I didnt know that. A drawer which most unexpected one. Uhh.

Last night, the lights in my bathroom, my parents' room and living room's were blinking. Idk why. It was scary u see. I was alone with my dog, Lester. My younger bro downstairs, older one out and maid watching tv downstairs. It happenned again this morning. Like fius terbakar, then no current d. Scarrryyyyy lahh~ I was bathing alone neh. My dog wasnt with me. So berani sikit:) Faster wear my clothes and everything.

Then I got tuition at 10am to 2pm. Chemistry. I was late because of my aunt? She said she couldnt get me so she decided not to take me to tuition already. I was late 20 mins. Heh. Nvm, luckily I wasnt the latest one. Elaine then Whay ying. Whay got tuition maaa~ Haih. Got scolding from Ms Linda for a wrong graph we drew. I didnt know anything. My brain wasnt working at that moment. My thinking was soooo slow or u can say not working at all. Im proud of Whay, she can at least understand what Linda was asking and teaching. I dont get Linda at all. We got scolded like shyt. Nvm. Its learning experience. Cheh. My brain karat d. Need more oil liao.

Wk came back dy. -_- I MISS MY PARENTS SO MUCH. Cried last night for that and the necklace. Haih. Dont know what to do at that time. I think I called my dad's hp many times. But he off it. I was so worried. Haih. Then this morning, my bro told me that my parents called last night at 12am and this morning when I was in tuition. Hahah good thing to hear that. Hopefully they're fine^^.

:) Mi, Di, Hopefully u both are alright. :)

STOLEN.

2006-12-18T02:03:00.000+08:00

-Sigh- I just got the news that one of my parents luggage got stolen in Bangkok. FUCK THE PENCURI! CURSE THEM TO DEATH! URGHH. I dont know how are my parents now. Its hard to communicate them. Haih. I wish they are alright.

My parents went to Bangkok this morning. Woke up at 4am. Found me still not sleep yet. I was chatting to Merl, Drew and Eng Sim. My mum scolded me like ~ Nvm. Then took a cab to KLIA at 6am. Flight, 7am. I cant sleep last night. I was thinking about SHOPPING~ Hahah. What to buy and stuffs. Anyway, I got not much money. My parents gave me a RM100 note. That means, I can only buy 2 shirts. Haih.

Tmro night Im going to my bro's new house. Heheh >:] He isnt moving there now. One day, he'll move to there, one dayy... Im helping him to paint his house tmro night. Uh X( Apa ni? Gelap gelap sau cat? Heh.

AND OH YEAHHH! SHIN LAI! Finally he onlines! YAY! So glad to see him back. He's coming ack to Msia from Florida next week! But still I cant see him also. Ceh. X\ One day we go for a movie kay. Heheh.

Thats all lah~ Nights. :D

PROBLEMATIC GIRL.

2006-12-16T20:33:00.000+08:00

Uhm, Im kinda weird or maybe very. I liked Wk last time but now.. dunno lah. Dunno what happenned to me. Now Im feeling guilty/bad. The best of all, forget HIM and have fun with friends. Right. Im not serious in this thing lah. I thought I really like him last time. Cheh.

Went to KP just now. I went with SY since her house is near to Kp. She can just walk there. Saw Sj with her two sisters in McD. They dont look alike at all. Heheh. Uh. Then nth much lah. I shared my problems with Sy. Uhm, I actually blogged last night,, but somehow there was an error again. Uhh. Nvm. Gee. I miss Joyce and Val. Didnt see them for so long d. I wonder what are they doin. Val? Chicken pox. Sleep at home probably. Joyce? Having alot of fun in China. Whay? Just came back from Genting. SY? Watching tv at home and probably gonna work soon again. Sj? No idea. Shu Gi? Always in grandma's house watching tv, probably studying also. Hmph. Eelin? No idea. Hahah.

JE representing Klang for basketball. Hahah. GOGO JE! I wanna see him play laa. But it'll be in Cheras coming this Monday. Too far le. Cant see him play d. Got once in Klang lah. Pandamaran. That time.. I didnt know what kind of bkb competition also. So I didnt really care bout what he said. Now! Regret! Haih. Nvm. Hopefully he'll win. Then maybe next match will be in Klang or somewhere nearer? Heheh. I SUPPORT U JE!!

A WEEK MORE TO GO.

2006-12-15T19:52:00.000+08:00

Nah, not even a week. He's coming back soon! Wahahah. Wednesday! Less than a week! I cant wait to see him again! Heheh >:] Oh welll, I'll be seeing him on Thursday not Wednesday. Hmpph. I cried last night? Lol. Not because of Wk but Yj.

I got nth to do last night, so I went to Friendster and checked on my friends' profiles. Till I went to my friends list last page. I saw Yj's pic. New pics. So I went and see them lahh. Then I started to miss him? Uhh. Perkara biasa lah right. The pics of him were in KK. I remembered we were still together at that time. He said he was afraid of the canopy walk. He smsed me after the walk. I told him I wanna see the pics and make sure he took lotsaa pics there. So he did. He promised to show me the pics during Genting time? Uh. He did not show any also. He had alot of fun there in KK yeh. He's a person who likes to smile all the time. A cheerful and happy-go-lucky guy. Many girls like him too. I know his attitude very well. His mind is not complicated. Uh. Why am I talking bout him right now? Ahh. I wish there's another clone of him and cheers me up like before. A clone with a sincere heart. ):!!!!!!!!!!!! Whenever I think about him,, I cant smile. As what I've been through, Yj was the only guy who made me smiles and happy all the time. I miis the time when we were together.

TT_________TT

Time to go tuition! ): Kelly, Joyce and Jac will be absent today. Im gonna be alone or maybe with.. MICHELLE! Good thing she'll be there :)

TOOTHACHE!

2006-12-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

Uh. I dont think its toothache.. but it is.. gum swollen.. I think. Same case like Phei Wyin! Haihz. So so sososos pain! I got this since Monday dd..

Monday : Pain. Whole gum pain. And cant identify where is the pain from.
Tuesday : Identified. Still very pain.
Wednesday : Pain in the morning but cooled down in the evening. Then at night.. GOSH!!
Thursday : Felt much better than before. But.. it still hurts ):

Actually I planned to go see dentist on Monday.. but somehow, my parents are busy. Then I went to see a dentist on Tuesday. My mum and I have waited for an hour. So.. of course my mom got fed up lah. Then we went home. On Wed, planned to see another dentist again,, but my parents not free! ): Uh. Nvm. Heheh. And now. Thursday! Felt much better. Can close my mouth d. Before that, I cant even close my mouth or eat. ): Wind blows also pain d. Haihz.

Then, my mom said probably I slp late everynight. I usually sleep at 4am. and I dont drink enough of water. So she said.. maybe its heaty. Err. Dont know how to spell it. Heheh.

-Sigh- oh yaa. Im going to 1U on Xmas! X) with my friends. Not many of them.. Im going with Phei Wyin, Alvin and his gf and JE. I asked him already but still not confirm yet. Hopefully u can go JE! Heheh. Long time no c d. If Alvin's bringing his gf along.. I think we'll be walking separately liao. We dont wanna be spotlight right. Hahah. Uh. Nvm. JE MUST GO! LOL.

HE WENT LIAO FOR 9 DAYS!

2006-12-12T17:51:00.000+08:00

Haih. This morning, Wk went to Negeri9 d. FOR 9 DAYS! He'll meet many many ppl there too. From Nepal, Indo, Sg, Filipina, India, China and Hong Kong. Msia's last jamboree. =O and he's not gonna on9 for a week plus 2 days. He said he's gonna move to a new house also on Sat but duno which Sat! ): Talked talked talked until forgot to ask him le. After he moves, there'll be no line or anything. -sigh- Cant talk to him.. But can see him in tuition next thursday lo. He's moving to Setia Alam. I dunno where is it. He said it is somewhere near to KP. 4km from KP. Far eh? But his current house is 8km plus from KP le. No wonder he sweat alot that day when he reached JJ. He cycled ma. And if Im not wrong, about 5pm.. it was raining. We went home at 5. So he got all wet? SWEAT then WET. Kesian him lah. Heh.

Haih. I think he doesnt even like me. Not even a single bit. And I think I should stop thinking him d before I get myself into any trouble. Like.. totally cannot forget him? Like last time lah. Me and Yj. So.. I SHOULD STOP! and find new one? Siao. Hahah. Nobody I admire or like beside Wk. And I will not accept or like any guys from online aymore unless we met somewhere before. The guys I know from online one.. very what lah. They're too girlish for me. Not all of them.. only some. Idk why they like to ask stupid and lebih questions also. Tho I got nth much to chat with Wk, I prefer chatting with him than any of the guys from online. Some kay.

Last night, Wk's friend who went to JJ one, played us lah. including Ryan also. I was panic at that time. At 1st I thought it doesnt matter at all bout I went to JJ with Wk plus Whay and dat indian guy. They said they wanna tell everyone I think. Wk was chatting with Ryan on the phone. Then Wk told me everything lah. Grr. They made me.. like. dont want to go tuition anymore d. Coz Im the 1st girl who asked him out. and likes hhim also I think. Everyone got shocked to hear that. ==" That was what he said lah. Then,, long story lah. Lazy to type. Finally only I knew they were playing Wk. Thats all loh. They didnt tell ppl. Only Ryan and the Indian guy know. I have told Ryan and Calvin not to tell anyone that I like him d. I hope they wont break their promise ^^ Heheh.

I MISS WK! LOL. He's not a reli good looking guy but I dont know why I like him. :)

WK. HAHAH. ^^

2006-12-10T23:18:00.000+08:00

Guess what? I woke up at 10:30am this morning. Then hurried to a boutique. Buy a DRESS. Uh. I? Wear dress?! LOL. Imagine it. Its a white dress with black ribbons. Heheh ^^ I and Whay in JJ this afternoon was searching for a necklace and a pin. Its hard to find that kind of necklace I want u know. So, before she came, I was like.. uhm. busy looking for it. but couldnt find any suitable ones for me. Anyway, I found a necklace at last tho its not the one I want. Nvm. I wanted to buy it but it is... SUPER EXPENSIVE! RM63.90! Uhh. Its really expensive to me eh. Since the price is 'beautiful', I decided to call my mom and asked permission to buy it. Ahh. She didnt allow me to buy! Nvm. She said she got lotsa necklaces at home.. which I dont really like them. I wore high heels to the dinner. Ahh. My feet! Kinda pain but its okay. Felt like wearing them again. Heheh. Coz I look taller.

So.. TODAY! I went to JJ with Whay, Wk and one Indian guy. I dont know him. He's Wk's friend. Uhmm. Kinda bored.. and I was shy. I think he was too. He did not talk much except to his friend lah. They were like keep talking nonstop and got lotsa topics to chat. They must be very close. Hahha. I and Whay walked in front.. and them.. kinda far behind us. He's cute eh. When they were taking their.. lunch? or teabreak? Lol. In Nandos. Wk was like crying coz he ate somethin spicy. Heheh. >:] Cute lahh~ HHAHAHA. Okay, thats all~ :D

JJ 12PM.

2006-12-10T01:14:00.000+08:00

HAHAH. Wk has just sent me RM5. WEE~! I mean my hp credit lah. He got alot of $~ rm100++ and me.. ZERO! 0! lol. He's goin to JJ tmro. Maybe ermm. We'll be goin at 12pm I think. SO. WHAY.. GOINGG??! Go le k. Hahah. Hope u got no plans tmro. :P and go with me! Heheh. I'll be calling Eelin tmro morning. I actually forgot to call u guys lah. SRY yeh.

We're gonna watch a movie tmro. and kai kai lah. I hope everything will go well tmro. Confirm with me if u see this Whay!

GRANDMA!!

2006-12-10T00:37:00.000+08:00

Uhh. Already for months I didnt get to see my grandma. As I said before, my family got prob. I cant see her! I miss her ALOTT. She gave me and my younger brother rm100 each. We are not from rich family kay. She gave us the day before we went to Genting. Uh. I cried in the car when my dad told me about it. Nvm. I dreamt of her last night too. It was a really long dream. Talking bout this, I dreamt of YJ and JE the day before yesterday. Ceh. I hav kinda stop thinking bout Yj already.. and JE? No idea.

Anyway, Im goin to see my grandma during dinner tmro night! Heheh. Am very excited right now. And I planned to buy something for her.. but I dunno how to giv it to her. and when. and what. My dad went to see my grandma the day before we went to Genting. She asked my dad.. that.. Why I did not come to see her? Where are all of us (me and my younger bro) ? Uhh. U dont know how does it really feels like. I feel soo guilty. Leaving her alone at her house.. Ppl seldom visit her.. Alone with her maid.. and she's old already. Nothin much to do everyday at home. A quiet place. Nobody to chat to everyday. Walking here and there at home. Watchin tv only.. Im wondering what is she doing everyday. She'll feel sad of course. Lonely at her age.. IMAGINE IT! UHH. IM CRYING NOW! WHY?! I HATE MYSELF!! I WANNA SEE HER! I MISS HER! I thought she doesnt love me anymore but she still does!

Okay, so.. what should I buy for her? Suggest something for me please! I dont know what to buy bsides flower.. I dont want to giv her flowers lah. Feel one kind. SO?! ANY IDEAS?! Tell me k!

FRIDAY.

2006-12-09T02:05:00.000+08:00

I didnt want to go tuition one le just now! Heavy rain at 430pm. and it stopped around 5. What the. so ngam meh. My tuition starts at 5pm every Friday and ends at 7pm. Two hours. With the teacher and all boys. Im the only girl. Uh. I called many of my friends to that tuition but.. they can't. So Im waiting for Yee Ling! She's coming back in Jan. Heheh. Luckily she didnt stop.

Uhmm. Then went for Acc class. Again, I was so sleepy but did not fall asleep. Uhh.. Nth much lah. It ended at 1045pm. Almost 11 reached home. Did yoga till 12am. Then online till now. Hahah. Im like.. talking to Wk everyday ^^ but always out of topic one. When got topic, we'll like.. talk alot and alot and nonstop. When no topic, very quiet.. as silent.. as a graveyard.. == hahah.

He's cool eh. He's the senior troop leader in Scout, High School Klang. Geng le. He's goin to dunno what Msia Jamboree thingy and camp in Negeri Sembilan for 8 days! 12th to 19th Dec. So lonngg. Lucky him, next week we got no Chemistry and Addmaths classes! and cant talk to him for 8 days. Ceh. Heheh. He wanna be an engineer I think. He said so. Not sure. Anddd this Sunday! Im probably going out with him to JJ! YAYY! Ceh. Not only me and him lah. He's calling his friends and so I am. WHAY YING! GO OKAY! Hope u come back from Pangkor by that time d lah. Hehhe.

Thats all~ Night!

CANT MAKE IT.

2006-12-08T01:53:00.000+08:00

As usual, went to tuition, addmaths. Learnt a new topic. INTEGRATION. Quite fun lah~ but my mind is so slow~ slow thinking. Haihz.

Before, I planned to go JJ right. Eelin cant go. She got tuition. Heh. Last minute only tell me. Then I called Sharon.. She cant also, she got tuition, again! X( She said I should ask her earlier or else she'll be with me in JJ today d! Ceh. Nvm lah. SRY SHIN LAI. REALLY SRY.

Then now, Im talking to CS, the guy whom I met in KP that day one. He's so damn freaking lebih lah! Cnt tahan him! He asked a stupid question! He asked what time was my tuition over on that Tues. I answered 1.30pm. Then he said he cant c me and asked why. UHH. WTF? CANT C ME AND WHY?! Uh. HOW THE HELL AM I SUPPOSE TO KNOW EH. Plus, he said he misses me so much and asked how again. wtf. DONT ASK HOW LAH!!
GILA LEBIH PERSON.

AND NOW... ASKING ME TO ACCEPT HIM AH??! PLSS LAHH!! BEH TAHAN WIF UR SIKAP LIAO! SUMMORE WANNA ACCEPT U MEH??! Urgh. haha. okay. trying to cool down. right. uh.

Thats all lah! nite!

HAPPIE PICS.

2006-12-07T23:44:00.000+08:00

These pics are not happie! But make me happy! HAHAH. k. ENJOY~

These are all my fav pics! X) So, do they make u happie? Hahaha. and Feel like wanna be there? X) I wanna be there! X)

GENTING PICS!

2006-12-07T23:01:00.000+08:00

Here, these are the pics. We did not take alot. I also dunno why. Maybe.. no time? Hahah. Crap. Only a few and not many of me and my friends. ): We regretted le. Nvm.

GENTING! Heheh. Val took this from our room! XD

Outdoor games! :D

Model of the big big Genting~

Waterfall. Outdoor punye. Hmpph. Nice meh? Hahaha

This is the one I paling like one but didnt sit it ):!
CORKSCREW! I sat this and it was... ==" FUNNNN!!~

U'll shiver after u get down XD

Indoor. C O L O U R F U L right.I miss there~

I wanna go there again!!! X(

Dunno what the shyt they talking there. Heheh >:]
Say Yin (left) Shiau Ping (right)

Err. That's leng lui Valerie (left) and ugly girl, me (right).

Guess where the hell am I in the pic? Heheh. >:]

Val edited it! Can see me already? :)

So, thats all lah~ Hopefully Joyce takes alot alot of pics in China also and Whay too k! :D

HAPPIE BORING:)

2006-12-06T22:38:00.000+08:00

Hee. I talked to Wk just now. We talked kinda alot ^^ Dont wanna say it here :P Well, he's really a cool person. He doesnt really talk to girls one le. He got only about less than 5 female friends. Uhh. Anyway, nice chatting with him. (:

I did nothin much today. Woke up, brush teeth, wash face, lunch, bath, mamak, tuition, tv, dinner and now online. Boring right. My seaweeds gonna finish already ): and my mom doesnt lemme to buy another packet cuz it's expensive. I just bought it that Sun and now left few more packets! SEAWEEEEEEEEEDDS!!! GONNA MISS U. ;( I eat alot of them. addicted like KOPIKO. My younger bro also. He's not really addicted like me, but he eats alot too.

Goin to JJ tmro! Whay can't go already cuz she's goin to Pangkor.. So nice le~ not like me. always stay at home.. Seee. Whay : Pangkor. Joyce : China. Ethan : Taiwan. DONT LEAVE ME! hahah. Summore got no games to play. -sigh- So.. Im calling Eelin to go with me tmro. I hope she can go..

I was moody just now. Idk why. Im like this >__> heh. I.. I.. I think.. NO O2jam gua. Thats why I was moody? lol. I so wannaaaaaaa playyyy O2jam le! Dont know when I can play it.

YU YU HAKUSHO! Today's the last episode already. Feel like crying. I love all YYH songs. Haihz. I want it to continue!! Continue it by myself. Heheh. Ceh. Uh. I think that's all. Nth much d.

Night~

;)

2006-12-06T22:29:00.000+08:00

One. Two. Three.

It worked.

You're welcome. Haha.

Out,
WY

HMm.. BORING! ):

2006-12-03T23:43:00.000+08:00

Gonna kill myself d. What a boring day. But I think it's better than yesterday lah. The thing is.. no Shin Lai to talk to. Talking to him is fun ^^ but sometimes out of topic O__O heheh. Talking to Kok Ho jus now was also kinda fun ^^ We're YYH fans! He said he's gonna buy the Cds and gonna lend me! Hahah. THANKS ALOT!

Hmm. Woke up at 12pm today. I thought I and Sp goin to KP around 2pm. But tak sangka her church over at 1230pm --" So she went there early. Alone. I felt guilty and I tried my best to be as fast as I could, taking bath and everything lah. SRY SP!

I think I went there bout 1 something pm. So... met her at 2pm shop. Then we shopped. Then Im supposed to meet Shin Lai and his friends. but they were late. Hahah. Anyway, its okay. I was so shy to meet guys. U know lah,, its the 1st time meeting them. Lagi teruk. And I got no idea to go where. Actually I wanted to play bowling but all of sudden.. I dont really feel like playing d. I feel odd O__O Hahah. Nvm, there's still next time! Bsides, I also wanted to play pool wif SP. and snooker wif my bro. but tak sempat lah. Sp wanns to shop. Me also. So, again, next time lah! Hhehe. I missed goin out with Whay and Joy. ): One day! K!

Met Sam and his gf. Where ever I go, sure meet this guy one! not only him lah, other ppl also. for example, one tomb boi. This girl arhh.. Met her like thousand times d. She looks lansi also. Anyway, DONT CARE and DONT JUDGE PPL BY THEIR LOOK! lol.

Then.. Saw Chee Kar. Working in McD! Hahah. I didnt giv him anything for his sweet sixteen birthdae which was on the 7th eleven. 7 nov. Hehe. So I gav him today, since Ryan is like kinda pushing me to buy him one. I shared the present wif Ryan. I dunno whats wrong wif him. As I know, he doesnt like to buy gifts for ppl. Doesnt sound like him. Btw, he grew taller! Hahah. Taller than Brian and Calvin! Good thing to hear that! Lol. coz he always kene teased by ppl one. And me.. still short as usual. Haihz. I always get teased by ppl also. -sigh-

Khai Wei saw me in KP. But I didnt see him. He didnt even wanna say hi to me. He msged me only. Telling me that he saw me. Uh. What the. So lansi. Hahah. :P

And thennnnnnnnnn.. the guy who wans to see me,, met him today. for the 1st time again. Ahh. chatted with him for awhile, then I told him my bro is around here and I think he got freak out. so bubbye la. Ahh. Sien lah. Then I and Sp shop shop shopped for the whole day.

AND I FINALLY BOUGHT KOPIKO! hahah. and SEAWEEDS too! Lol. Loving it~ Keke. On msn now. Just now was crazy. I think some of my frens got angry d. cuz I replied them late. Was busy talking to my friends and now cool down d lah. Telling stories here and there. Listening stoires here and there. Crapping here and there. And now.. all wanna slp d. ME TOO! So slpy today. Dunno why tho I woke up late.

I felt kinda guilty today. Sp waited for me for so long in Kp. alone. Then.. I got no transport to go home. My bro lah. Dont want fetch me. He was slping.. TT___TT So Sp fetched me.
I treated someone kinda badly also jus now. and now. I dont feel like talking to this guy. So.. I.. simply answered him lah. Haihz. Im mean right. Hard-hearted. Like the horoscope said it too. Plus, Im so tired right now. I think I wanna go watch tv d. To keep me awake. Hahah. Idk why also. O___O. Ciao!

Hmmph. Wondering whats Joyce doin now.. Hehehe. TC JOYCE!

SAY NO TO YJ.

2006-12-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

SAY NO TO HIM!

I wish I can forget this guy. Haihz. HELP ME! I dont care his look.. but.. haihz. I dunno why I love him alot also. and I cant forget him! Im gonna die.

He bought me a necklace. Its SWEET. PINKISH! Of course I LOVE IT! Ahh. I wanna put up the pic of it but I dunno where's the cable. ): Nvm. Im always wearing it. U can see it! I miss him alot...

:(

Hopefully he will not see this. Heheh.

NOT COFFEE, BUT KOPIKO!

2006-12-02T18:41:00.000+08:00

HEHEH. Im addicted to KOPIKO right now. I ate around 6 yesterday and today I ate 2. Not many lah. but it's bad for health right. Im gonna be FATTER and fatter soon.

I dont want to continue bout the Genting thingy d. cuz I dont want to remember it. Heheh.

Ohh yeahh, yesterday, I was so. hyper. Last night, not yesterday day time. I dunno why but till 4am like that. I was not hyper already and started missing Yj. Uh. WTF. Anyway, I think I was hyper last night coz of JOYCE! She looks kinda okay, but not really laa.. Ahh. I dunno lah. I dunno why I was hyper also. Went to mamak yesterday for awhile. It was raining, so not many ppl went. So boring also. -- Dunno what to do.

HELP ME! Im always at home and I wanna go out! ENJOY with my friends! But how can I do that. My parents dont lemme go out and my friends are like.. hmm. busy giving excuses. This place cnt, that place cnt. What the. I wanna go out to KP with Sy today but she's working now. Heh. Then, Val.. sure cant go one lah. She said she dont dare to go kp. fine. JJ? A boring place. I can always see families hanging around there. KP! all teenagers. But there's nothing in KP. only... BOWLING! Hahah. I wanna bowl~ ! So.. Im boring now.

YJYJYJYJ. He sucks. ):

THE GENTING TRIP.

2006-11-30T14:13:00.000+08:00

So now I post bout the Genting trip..

On the 1st day, I went with my parents 1st on Sat then I joined my friends on Sun. cuz they came on Sun.. I was goin to meet YJ. I was so excited. Then Val msged me that she's gonna reach Genting! WOAH. It was still early and my family wasnt ready yet! Btw, its only 1030am.
So I walked to the 1st World hotel. While I was walking, I saw a bus passed me by. I was wondering maybe thats my frens' bus? YEP! EXACTLY! It was my frens' bus.

When I had reached the hotel, I saw them outside. YJ. WOW. He looked so darn cool with his clothes and sun glass? lol. and his hair! He's so attractive. Anyway, I did not stare or look much at him.. I pretend dont know him. So, when we had reached the lobby, he looked at me. staring at me. What the. He stared into my eyes till I felt one kind. shy.

Then we went to theme park. outdoor games. AHAH. I sat Spinner for the 1st time. I was so scared till I shivered when I got down. Uh. Then we went for corkscrew. WOOT. I saw YJ and his friends there. Hahah. He was wayyyy in front of us. I was again, SCARED and SHIVERED after the corkscrew. It was scary when it is in high speed. Of coz I closed my eyes for some part. Cuz.. it was too scary d.. -- hahah. I cant reli rmb what we sat. I knew we sat some crazee stuffs and made me shiver. heheh.

In the afternoon, we went in for lunch and was searching what to eat. DAMN. All the food there are soooo expensive. A bottle of water had cost me RM2. Its so expensive. Anyway. what to do man. I had spent alot of money there you know. Then, I think we went back to lobby to get our bags and checked in. Hmm. The room is okay. Not bad. The bathroom is.. very small. Nvm.

I cant really rmb what we did after that... Oh ya, we rest in hotel. We chatted in the room for kinda long.. Me and Val. We went in and out from the room. YF and WC's room was the biggest! So we all, Val, me, Say Yin, Shiao Ping, Suit Teng, Xin Yin, May Hwi and her gf ( dunno her name hehe ) went in to their room and hav fun. Play cards.. Uh. I cant rmb lah. I know we went for dinner later on.. Then sat roller coaster..

Next morning, I got up the earliest I guess. 437am. I couldnt sleep. I was like crazyy.. U know why lah I cant slp on that night. Ehm. So I waited till 6am. Took bath in Shiao Ping's room cuz I dont wanna Val to wake up. Wake Sy up is okay. HAHAH. Then we had our breakfast. Geee. I was so full for no reason. I didnt eat much. I ate a small cup cereal. Thats all. I was not well on that day. I felt so sick. Cough and flu. I felt like vomitig. I cant stand myself at that time and I thought I need rest. Anyway, I went for outdoor games and we all planned to sit Spaceshot. GEE. LAGI SCARY than the day before. Uh. So I didnt sit anything on the Sec day. What a waste.. I walked around. Looking at my frens enjoying their time. It was so cool if I was with them.. SHOUTING AND ENJOYING TOGETHER! WOOT.

hmm.. I cant rmb. I dunno why also. I rmb we then went to Ripley's Believe It Or Not. It was kinda fun... coz I didnt know much all about it. But my friends walked too fast and I think Im the last one. They didnt read. I read. -sigh-

Its still noon. We went to hav a nap in Yf's room. Bout 4pm, I felt like goin out. I wanna SHOP! Hahah. Im tired of taking a nap. So I planned to go out but Val didnt wanna go cuz she's tired already. Kebetulan Sp also wanna go out SHOPPING. YEP! so we did. Around 5pm, we went back. I think Sp was tired already too. So we get ready for SnowWorld. GEE. WHAT THE. ITS SO DARN COLD. But I think I can stand. For some of my friends, they cant. They're too skinny. Heheh. Yj was having fun there. He was very very cold too. I can see that. He was like shivering already.. He is very skinny okay. Super skinny but fit. He played with his friends.. and some girls TT_____TT I was sad at that time..

After that, we went back to hotel again. To take a bath. Hot waterr.. whhahaaa. Felt so much better. Then we went out again. We wanted to go to the haunted house. PONTIANAK ADVENTURE. Oh well, its not scary as what I thought. My friends didnt want to go except for some. Me, Shiao Ping, Suit Teng and Xin Yin.. Hmm. 4 of us only. I rmbed Yj wanted to go to the haunted house with us also. So I called him. He came bout 15 mins later. Then we went in...

Yj was the 1st one. He was guiding all of us. He's cool.. but.. he was like.. scared also. Hahaha. He's cute. I asked Yong Meng, his cousin, not to leave bhind and make sure he's always bhind me. hahah. I was scared ma.. So he did. He was like so protective. Hugged me from bhind. Thanks. I felt much better. But he was also scared lah., cheh. haha.

Uh. continue later alright. GTG. (:

LIL BIT.

2006-11-29T21:58:00.000+08:00

He said he likes me a little bit. Uh. I dunno what to do now. I should forget him now. I SHOULD. It's really hard to forget him. I talked to him just now. He explained almost everything to me. Okay, but still I dont feel any better. I really dont know what to do now.

I went to tuition just now. Chemistry. I tried my best to concentrate but I couldnt. A pic of him always in my mind. It's not only a pic, it's him I saw during Genting trip. Memories right. It is pointless to think bout him. I couldnt stop >__<
Many of my friends accompanied me last night and today, thanks alot. I need u guys.

-Sigh- ): To stop thinking him, I thought of commiting suicide. It is the best way to do so. So I wont be so like stress out or else Im probably gonna be crazy. CRAZY PY!! I DUNNO WHY I LOVE HIM! I know everyone thinks Im a stupid girl who loves a useless playboi. WHAT CAN I DO MAN?! COMMIT SUICIDE! LETS DO IT JOYCE!! I dont dare anyway. I tried to use a scissors and a knife to scratch my wrist. pointless. Felt the pain but no scar, no die. I really can't stand myself. He's driving my crazy. HELP ME!!!

YOU DUNNO HOW DOES IT FEEL LIKE. PLAYBOI SUX.

2006-11-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

I cant slp.
I cant forget him.
Im in love with him.
I dunno how to get him off from my mind.
I kept thinking bout him and cried.
I dont want to do so but it's really hard to forget.
I knew he played me..
I knew he's a playboy but I still dunno why I love him alot.
I regretted goin to Genting.
I had no fun there at all.
I dont wanna see him again.
I feel like dying now.
I know it is stupid.
I remember the way he stared at me.
I remember the way he looked at me.
I remember the way he smiled to me.
I remember the way he talked to me.
I cried lotsa time.
I tried to stop thinking bout him but it is really HARD.
I wish someone could ACCOMPANY MEnow:(
I wish someone UNDERSTANDS me.
I felt EMPTY in me.
I felt my soul has gone.
I dont want to get played by fools again.
I dont want to feel like this anymore.
I dont want to cried like this anymore.

IM HURT :(

IM SO EXCITED! AND AFRAID??!

2006-11-25T01:53:00.000+08:00

Yep! Im really excited right now! Im going to Genting tmro morning! Wait, not tmro but later! YAY!~ I hav packed bout 80% everything I need:D damn. I dunno why am I so happy now although I know I'll probably break with Yj this coming Sun. (tmro!) HAHAH. or I'v gone crazeee?! Okay, okay, stop being hyper. Hahah.

I went to APT to get my hair cut in Klang Parade. Uhh, it sucks. My HAIR!!! I wouldn't get my hair cut if I hav lots of hair. U know, I got lil hair:( Hmm. I look rounder now TT___TT.

Then, I went to buy contact lens. It costs me rm120! T____T not my money but my mum's. Pity her. Then, that Tues I have spent rm210 plus the Genting one, rm 170. Hmmm. How much? Hahah. I saw MC, with his mum.. his mum is kinda tall. Oh well:) just forget bout it.

Talking bout this now, I miss Yj. He did NOT sms to wish me good morning or even good night:( He did that everyday last time:( He didnt admit that he has another girl or somebody spending time with him. He said he was busy and his dad disallowed him to msg. Oh yeah right. Sarcastic betull. Ahh. I dunno le now. But in my opinion, I think we're gonna break this Sun although I accepted him thru sms. Get what I mean? Tak sah lah. So break, no break like no difference to me. Excpet the relationship of both of us. Semakin tak rapat d these days:( haihz.

I was soooo sleepy in tuition just now. I have never felt this sleepy b4 in tuition. Usually Im kinda awake because of Joyce or Kelly.

Joyce - likes to disturb me. She's a pembuli. Im the victim sadly.
Kelly - She talks kinda alot.. Sometimes, I dont really get what she wants to say. So it keeps me thinking and awake.

Joyce was quiet today. Kelly was absent. Anyway, I think if they wouldnt be like that anymore. Cuz we're gonna f5! SPM! CONCENTRATE! but I didnt. almost fell asleep in class. Heheh.

So.. MY FACE! MY LOOK! O_________O bloody round. Im sure Yj will run away after looking at my hideousssssssss round round face. Hahah. Im now so EXCITED bout the genting trip! and AFRAID bout Yj! Fuhhhh~~~~~ ~____~

Oh. One thing I have just realised about me not long ago. I HATE PPL IGNORE ME. SO PLEASE DONT IGNORE ME KAY. Hahah. TQ:)

I HATE YOU.

2006-11-23T15:01:00.000+08:00

damn YJ. I HATE YOU. U did not change at all. BABI.

Okay, definitely obviously he's playing me. Uhh. Fine. And I dont understand why is my bro likes to cari pasal with me??! I get to use the comp per hour a day or maybe not even a minute to use it. He's like using for more than 12 hours continuously and me?! WTF. So of cuz lah, I told him I wanna use it. Not long, we quarrelled. My mum came and scolded me since Im older than him. GEESHH. WTF?! What is her prob? Dont let me use and let my bro use? What the. Its soo unfair obviously. I hate him. alot.

DAMN YJ! I HATE YOU.

YESTERDAY.

2006-11-22T19:17:00.000+08:00

-sigh- I went to SP yesterday with Say Yin. We actually planned to go on Thurs but since yesterday was the ladies day so we went yesterday. Anyway, we didnt watch a movie. We were shopping for few hours. Damn. My legs were tired and so were SY's. Was so tired till I slept in the car for 2 hours due to the traffic. I spent bout RM200+.. not bad lah but my parents scolded me after I came home. I have no mood already that time cuz my hp was low battery so I couldnt talk to YJ and so worried bout him. YJ was like so busy on something and didnt msg me for the whole day. I was wondering what was he so busy with. Anyway, I msged him and he finally replied said that he was busy on jungle tracking that whole afternoon and that time he was playing CS. Okay, so at least I knew somethin. And my mood was much better already. Playing CS is okay. I don't mind cuz he needs freedom and fun right. Then, everything went very well. We chatted but he replied me kinda late. Uh. Maybe he was chatting to somebody else. While we were chattin in msn, he sent a msg. Pretty touching:) Then he continued playing CS. He lost. Hahah. Cute. He called me after that and everything went well ^^

Now.. I dunno what's wrong with my hp lah. I can call but cant sms. WTH. I called him many times but couldnt reach him. I guess he's on the way back to Sel. ^^ TC JIAN. I cant msg u:(

ONLINE BUSINESS? O.O

2006-11-19T18:26:00.000+08:00

YEP! IM BLOGGING AGAIN! hahhah. Now Im gonna blog about what I did today. Well, actually nth much.. but.. oh well :)

I went to the quarterly meeting today in 1U. At 1st I thought we'll be having fun and selecting coaches there. That's what my friends told me. When I got in to the room, 'ONLINE BUSINESS' was clearly written there. What the heck? I came here for learning about online business? If Im not mistaken, the letter which had sent to us written something bout business and online.

So, now I seee.. that was all about. Cheh. I think there was only one auntie there, dunno whose mum and the rest were the graduates and non-graduates. ONLY 7 graduates attended the meeting includin me. There were 78 graduates and only 7 turned up? Hahah. Online Business! Who wants to study that! lmao. About 40 of us were there. Most of them were the non-graduates and coaches. So, we dont even know who they are and about 10 of them from Sri KDU I guess? So rich lah them. Pakai until so cantik cantik and seksi seksi. Uh huh. The meeting was so boring and felt so slpy ler. But Im happy

One of the trainer taught us how to earn money from the Internet. To begin, u need to open ac account in blogger.com , myspace.com and squidoo.com . Then I was not really listening to him already. Cuz it was so boringg. He talked somethin' about Adsense. That's where u can make money. Uh. Whatever~

Then me and my family had lucnh, then shoppin. then go back.
That's all lo. Very sien ler :(

3 OF THEM. 4 OF US.

2006-11-19T16:58:00.000+08:00

Well, well, well,.. I was supposed to blog last friday but since I got no time last fri and yesterday, so I blog now:)

Last fri was the last day of school! My friends and I had great time together! U know, 6 out of 31 came to school.. Me, Valerie, Su Juan, Say Yin, Atiqah and Wai Yin. U can see there was only one Malay girl cam to school but don't pity her, pity Wai Yin. Almost the entire class dont like her. Of cuz Im not gonna tel why :)

It was fun when my friends and I was 'playing' hide and seek with WY. We hide ourselves in the classroom and closed all doors when we saw her on the way to office. Which the classroom is kinda close to the office. We wanted her to mix with other class students not us and we didnt want her to be here. Damn! Idk why was she there also. :(! Anyway, she called Pn. Chua and found us hiding. cheh. She was like ruined everything we planned.

So, here, see what SJ made. TWISTER. cheap and goood. hahha. We played this and tak pasal pasal WY also wanted to play. So we let her played alone.. :( Pity her actually but she.. HAIZ. dont want talk bout it already.

Ain't she's CREATIVE?

Aiks. More photos in Val's blog. (:

So we chatted and played alot of games in clas lah. Time really flies so fast. We got not enough time to chat with also:( Plus, I hav to leave them next year. We'll not be in the same class anymore :( F5!! Probably Im goin to 5P. not bad lah. :( and maybe Im gonna be alone :( hopefully Shu Gi will be in the same class as me next year! :D

That's all~
PY.

50% COMPLETE.

2006-11-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

50% is not all about O2jam but everything.

Let's see..

*I can get in to msn. yay.. Im happie. Sounds sarcastic, yeah I know.
*O2jam is installed. There's an icon of O2jam in my dekstop but still I couldn't get in. Uhh. What the heck?
*I finally dl-ed Final Destination 3. but but.. it's the wrong one! It's FD2. babinyerr. It's written there FINAL DESTINATION 3 clearly. And all of sudden FD2 pulak keluar when Im watchin. cheh. Anyways, I have watched FD3 already.
*Thought of going to the Planetshakers tonight but in the end I didn't make it. I was frustrated at that time, so I don't feel like going already.
*Discussing bout the Genting trip half wayy. And still I dunno whom I'll be following with. Probably not following my friends already cuz my partner duno my friends. Anyway, I guess it's okay. :(
*Talking to some of my friends in msn.. Suddenly gtg pulak. -sigh- nobody wants to chat with me I guess or obviously.

Uhh. Nth else d gua.

I have a very weird dream last night. I dreamt I can fly or jump very high into the air. Somethin like that lah. Everyone's looking at me at the bottom and asking how did I do that. I did not answer and continued goin to some place. I was in a very very very huggeeeee enormous palace. The surroundings are soo beautiful decorated with flowers and sculptures. The design of this palace is amazingly wonderful. VERY BEAUTIFUL, really. I wish this palace exists so that I can study about it.

Then I saw cars flying like in Star Wars. Hahah. If im not mistaken, I saw Eminem there in blue. Weird, huh? Then, I saw Valerie in one of the palace's rooms. It's kinda small. I dunno where was I goin to.. I guess it was the back of the palace. So muddy behind there and a very high hut made out of wood. Kind of spooky. This palace is old I guess but most parts of the building are renovated. Behind this palace, there's a big big dark brown in color door. It's like an ancient door. It has not opened for more than hundred hundred years already. Then, I dunno who ordered to open that door.. we hav to enter. and fuuhhhh. very DUSTY. superb. and then scary things happened lah, u know. I don't wanna talk bout it already. Feel so cold now and eerie. hahah.

K lah. that's all for tonite. NITE!

PY. JESSE MCCARTNEY.

2006-11-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

Lalala~ Why am I so lazy!! Uhh. Im supposed to study something today, especially Chemistry but I didnt. Felt so lazy lah. Haihz.

What to dooo nowwww. I on9 also got nth much to do. o2jam pun tak blh main. Haihz :( Dunno who deleted it and now I gotta dl again. Now only 5%!! :( So slow lah

Haihz. As some of u know, I was crazy of Jesse McCartney last time. and now, IM BACK. The old Pei Ying is back. Hahah. gee. He's so cute. One thing I realised, most of his songs are bout love. heh? O____O? Wat the. I love almost all of his songs especially his second album. U know, one of his song, Invincible, is a true story bout his friend who died last 3 years ago. The song is kind of touching and Im loving it :]. I dunno how to put up the video here.. so go to here if u are interested http://www.jessemccartney.com Find it over there lah. Hahha. Did u know he blogs too? He got myspace and its the true him, really. He blogs whenever he's free. Well, here's the link if u wanna drop by.. http://www.myspace.com/jessemccartney There's a personal message from him telling us it's him. Hahaha.

py.

em.. em.. em??!

2006-11-13T01:21:00.000+08:00

Wahaha. my friend, Val finally managed to go to Genting with me! woot! so damn happie lah. but she said it's not confirm yet. hmm.. .. i guess 99% she'll be goin? hahhaa. :D!

aiyai. Damn boring le nowadays. Got nth much to do. besides homework, study. besides study, tv. besides tv, songs. besides songs, shopping. besides besides besides.. blahh. i really got nth much to do already. Haiz,,

So today.. I went out shopping with my mum and dad to kp. It was super boring goin out with them cuz they left me behind and dont even bother much about me. Geesh. nvm. ohh yaa. u know the camp I went in August..., I'll be meeting my friends again in 1U! I guess. Hopefully they'll be there. One of them confirmed.. but the rest, idk. It is quarterly meeting where all of the graduates meet each other after 3 months and selecting coaches for the next camp. ahah. I wont be a coach and i dont want to be one cuz if u're a coach, u gotta do lotssa works and if u did them wrongly, u'll be punished pumping. See. that's what I saw in the previous camp. However, it's pretty fun, I guess and touching too. hahha. It's on 19 nov, next Sunday. So, any of u wanna go there, u can. but u gotta pay rm 50. and me rm 35. It'll be in MPH, 1U (new). Inform me 1st if u wanna go. hahha. btw, i dont think anyone wants to go. ==

so thats it for tonite. nite ppl.

py :)

2006-11-10T01:56:00.000+08:00

THURS! last day of school! yesh! eh, nono.. im still goin to school next fri. hahah. to meet my friends, and one of them is grounded. :( I felt very pity for her and actually I almost cried bout it. Gee, I guess I couldn't have some fun with her anymore I guess.

Kinda pissed off with somebody today. That orang,, urghh. did something wrong d lah, summore dont want to admit. damn babi lah. Lagi lagi go blame me pulak in front of my teacher. Dunno whats her problem.. I think she was sesat lah. She dunno what to say and since she had done somethin wrong, she blamed it on other person. Plus, she's been trying to be soft and looked innocent. Ahh, her face mmg look innocent but the true colour of her.. the opposite. And i dunno why again, one of her friend helped her and lied in front of the teacher about me. GEESSH, and all my friends were trying to help and argue back too. Anyway, yeah, at 1st i got scolding by 4 teachers. and dat time i was alone. ALONE! none of my friends were there, since the teachers called me to the staff room. so, no defense lah. I cant do anything and Im forced to take responsible on that babi's fault. Plus, I got no chance to fight back. If my friends were there, they have probably tried to help me. Then, my form teacher came in to my class and started to scold me. uhh. Since my friends were around me, of course, I argued back. but me alone couldnt argue back. so my friends helped me. THANKS.

Not only that lah, as usual, most of the 1st class students looked down on us, my class, 4th class. My class is blacklisted and it was all bcoz of some few girls were copying each other papers and sms-ing during the exam. However, If im not mistaken, the teachers found out. and since that, my class is popular. Most of the 1st class students are prefects, so when they were in duty, THEY LOVVVVEEEEEEEE GOIN TO MY CLASS SO MUCH. As if there's a huge Christmas tree in my class. Well, not all the prefects, mm, i guess bout 4 of them love to visit my class. While the rest, as usual dont like talking to us or give a smile. At 1st I cared bout it a lil, but till today, two prefects called a discipline teacher to my class and halau all of us coz it was actually recess. But we were gonna to hav a small party, we were trying to tell her. She said the party must be held in canteen. uhh. Since when all parties must be held in canteen? So i get a long lecture from her since im the monitor class. uhh. Idiot pengawas. Look down already lah, summore try to kene us and smiling smiling over there. I dunno what's their prob lah. They thought they are the cleverest students in school, uhh PLEASE. U PENGAWAS, NOT. Everyone can achive bout the same results as theirs. The only thing is we are lazy and this is our LIFE. BODOH BETUL taht idiots. Not only pengawas, even teachers.

Mmm, then we had our party in canteen. We ordered McD only. Nth much, then we hav to get back to our class. hmmph. though I was angry with the idiots, but still Im happy at the same time. I dunno. I and Val have problems but hers is worse. :(

I guess nth much already, so thats all lah. nite :)

YU YU HAKUSHO !! hahha

2006-11-05T01:24:00.000+08:00

Haiyaa. Tak pasal pasal my comp rosak. and now, my dad jus bought a new pc.. but cant go to the Internet! duno y le.. So now im using my dad's notebk.

Well, my results for the F.E.. not bad lah for me. Didnt fail any subj. hahah. so not bad for me d coz I didnt study... what to do. kaka :) Im a lazy person. These days, very boring le. Got nth to do.. except for the Add Math project. and i have not finished yet. X(

Now Im so addicted to one song lahh.. It's the ending theme song for YYH but different from the previous one. the 4th ending theme song i guess. till now, im still addicted to the 3rd one! the 3rd song is kinda touching by listening to the tune.. haha. It's japanese and there's subtitle for it.. so I know it's a love song.. hmph. kinda touching. BUTTTT... !! the 4th one.. to me is very very touching and I easily forgot how is the song like. So i recorded it into my hp since my pc cant get into the net :( U know,, those of u who have not heard of YYH ( Yu Yu Hakusho ) should watch it. hah. perhaps u'll love it. dont think this show is childish ya. it's meaningful and is the best show i have ever watched tho it is old. anyways, it's gonna over soon in animax. so buy cd lah! hahah. if u start watching now,, i dont think u'll catch up everything and u'll feel bored. so watch from the beginning!

Ermm.. i started to watch dragon ball these days. well, not too l8 to watch now and the show is still long way to go.. It's really interesting u know. Mmm.. if any of u ppl would like to watch it but do not understand, ask somebody who knows all about it. I still dont really know, just a lil. The story is actually much more simple than YYH. so try watching it. ^^

well, that's all for tonite, nite.

2006-10-09T14:30:00.000+08:00

My mum and dad has gone to China.. for a week :( sigh. a week!! im not gonna see my parents for a weeekkkkkkkk??!! really,, i miss them alot. i can only see them this Sunday. waaayy long to go and im not sure i can contact them or not. mm, dowan talk bout this already.

Well, this Wed, im gonna to temple to pray. Im not quite sure what am i supposed to do.. ahh jus follow my aunties and uncles lah. then, this Saturday i got dinner in the same temple to celebrate a God's birthday. hee :) i guess.

Today's papers were soooooooooooooo X____X difficult. Accounts is okay but chemistry!! Was super hard. i mean yeah its bcoz i didnt study much. 80% of calculation in Chemis 1 and the thing is, i duno how to count. so habis lah everything. hahah. dun care bout it d lah.

ohhh ya. im goin to CH after the exam! woot! i sooo cant wait to getthere and especially with my mum and dad!!! :D!!! im gonna take alot alot alot of beautiful pics like flowers, mountains etc. then put in an album weeee!!~ so its like i'll be getting an album full of nature pics! xD!! hehe i jus cant wait. :)!

mm,, tonight will be lonely again, i mean my parents are not around, jus me, brothers, dogs and maid. they wont be shouting at my ears asking me to go slp early.. . i wont be spending some of my time chatting with them.. i wont be watching tv with them,, uhh blahh. really miss them >_<

and ohh take a look at this. sounds really me but not 100% me.

MAY.
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited.

It's like half of them are me! :D kinda true eh. I got this from a forwarded msg from my friend.

The ones Im very agree with are stubborn, hard-hearted (i guess :] ), easily angered ( depends lah, if its a reasonable reason, i wont be easily angered ) deep feelings? hahah duno need no motivation, i dont like motivation or i'll go against it, probably. shy towards opposite sex, loves to dream, understanding (hahahhahah! not really la.. duno) sickness usually in the ear and neck. erm one more, head. weak breathing. (yeah, i masuk hospital bcoz of this b4 and i easily get a cough,, uhh plus the haze now!) I dun like literature but i loovveee arts, love traveling (YEAP!) and nomore. hahah. anyways, i know i cant judge myself but this is what i think about myself. kekee.

tonight

2006-10-08T01:53:00.000+08:00

Something's wrong with my blog lah. so i deleted my previous one and start a new one :D

Anyway,. im BACK! hahaha. long time no blog d coz i malas. uhm,, i know no one's gonna read it but its okay to me. i jus wanna express my feelings here like in diary. these days im sooo lazy to write in my diary d lah. getting lazy-er. hehe.

Today, 7th of Oct 06. i felt so .. something. undescribable. touch? lol. i was at home for the whole day till evening, i went to jj wif my parents. they're goin to China tomorrow, and me and my brothers will be alone at home for the whole next week. so we went to jj and bought some stuffs. i bought a japanese dictionary. i wanna learn jap! i wish somone could teach me jap. my friends learn jap in school and they can speak i guess. actually i wanted to take jap class but i got tuition, clash wif the jap class time table :( I asked my friends to teach me jap but they.. erm feel like not teaching me, so its okay. im afraid i make them feel so troublesome. so i try to learn it myself and if i couldnt understand, i can try to ask the jap teacher or my frens :)

There were so many ppl in jj. many cars too, and many of them waited for so long for a carpark. ahh, before goin up to search for a carpark, in my heart says we'll find a car park easily today. so we go uppppppp. then, when we reached, my heart was like counting from 5, den we'll get a carpark immediately. so jus wait. cool down. then i think.. uhm really? its stupid thing to do. but i did. hahah. and REALLY! i counted in my heart starting from 5, 4 den i stopped. why am i doin this? its stupid. oh well, feel like doin it so~ and bsides, im bored. so again. 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 ... my dad stopped and saw a malay couple walking towards to their car and ready to go home. ahah! really. well, i jus listened to my heart says. jus like before, the eng ann dinner, my heart said i'll hav a gd time there and get one lucky draw n really! hmph. miracle.

Then we went in, most of them are wif family. shopping happily. smiling away. busy buying clothes, well, i feel so touch. err, watching them enjoying their time? lol. its a beautiful night today, isnt it? On the way home, in the car, watching outside, yellow-orange lights shined so beautiifullllllllllllllly outside. as if they were like stars. and big buidings, houses where families live, shops where ppl work. and suddenly something across my mind, i live in msia... and i see the way ppl live here. the scenery here. and i was wondering at dat time, how the way ppl live outside? like in Japan, Korea, Hong Kong . . . etc. so i thought that when i grow up, i wanna travel outside. but its expensive. where can i get that much money to travel to so many places. so i decided to work hard and planned nt to go to so many places. hehe.

I wanna work now. but.. i got no time. wed to fri, i got tuition. plus the homeworks and all. i decided to take arts due to my amibition but.. if i take.. how can i work?! the art class will be in the afternoon. my parents said they can fetch me to there already. so.. how? should i jus.. not taking arts and go find a job? or.. take art class and stop thinking about the job? haih. plus, i cant get a job also. who wants to hire me for a temporary job? to work, i guess, must work everyday? i duno. i gotta ask dat and try looking for a job after my exam. :( help me!!

Nowadays, im so addicted to Yu Yu Hakusho. i read the comics till 6 , coz the rest were lost. and those are my bro's. i watch the show, the movie. it's like all day long im thinking bout Yu Yu Hakusho. lol. bsides, i dl-ed the songs too. well, not all of them are nice to listen to. only two or three of them which are the opening and ending theme. the one i love n most addicted to now is Unbalance Kiss, the third ending theme. geeesshhhh, i so love that song! hehe. after my exam, which will be over this coming fri, im gonna buy all the dvds of YYH. movies + episodes. Its really interesting. hehe

This week, many of my frens asking me, 'do u hav a bf already?' lol. why ask? i know im old already and still dont hav a bf. hahha. i dunno lah. shud i hav a bf? its not important right? i mean, kinda. lol. some ppl who dont care about bfs gfs of coz not important to them lah. these ppl ,, dont care bout love? i mean we want a bf coz we want love n care from them. so these ppl most are studios type persons and dont want care and love from other ppl? i duno. maybe they had too much from their family. hahah. me,, i had alot from my family too but still im a human right? i need love, attention and care from some ppl too right? lol. i sound so pathetic, really. err, some ppl tot i 'see face' means, i only accept good looking guys. actually no, i didnt take the 'some ppl' as my bf coz im not interested with them. i wish they understand. anyway, right now, i like nobody and not interested wif anyone now since i last broke wif my ex bf, december 05. i did like some ppl, but not in a serious love previously.

well thats all! :)